Starlit Field Beyond the Flames

Friday, July 14, 2006

I wish she also had a blog like all other girls... Every girl I know has a blog, even though its not regularly updated EXCEPT her... So sad... If she did have a blog then I can find out what she thinks about me as well (hopefully), find out what she likes to get as a gift/birthday present, who she loves, whether she has any secret boy friends from other school, or even just to see how her everyday life is... Was so damn freaking frustrated because of this that I spazzed like hell today morning. Threw my bag down like 5 times? at the parade square. Only Edward, and Kok Quan saw it I think. After that I was thinking whether I even had a chance to be with her... Then again, in the canteen, when I was going to buy 2 Milos for Kok Quan and I, 2 of her best friends (I think) noticed me walking towards them and gave the "look over there" eye signs to me. She didn't look... Shy? or doesn't like me? DAMN! Wish I can figure out... People helping me get closer to her are not doing a very good job. Some advices are just freaking LAME. You can see a change in my tone already... Pissed off thinking about this stuff... Wondering whether she likes me or not... Jealous of Zai Hua heh... Handsome, charismatic eyebrows, funny and nice personality... Oh well... I used to believe I was cursed. Every sports team I go into, loses. No girl truly loved me ever. 1 vote for the "Mr. 4E2" heh. Then today again, I got so pissed off at Sunny, my former bestest friend... I SMSed him but he didn't reply. Well shouldn't be pissed off, I don't even know whether he's in Singapore or not... Hating life at the moment... Everything sucks balls. Everything's shit. Everything's f***ed up. Well to me at least... Yet again, I'm never going to give up until I see that she clearly has a boy friend/lover or if she slaps me in the face or say "I hate you" or something... I'm damn persistant... Yeah. Lover her... Love her so much...

SHUT UP.
6:35 PM