Yesterday was the graduation dance... I say it was fun but it was disappointing also... There is supposed to be a freaking DANCE. The ball room is supposed to be like BIG and there is supposed to be like an open space for people to dance with their partners... Everyone looked fabulous yesterday. But the only one I couldn't keep my eyes off was Hui Min. The "tube dress" matched her perfectly XD. She was G O R G E O U S!!. Guess my heart and my eyes went back in time a little to when I liked her. Others like Sharon, Yu Ting, Min Min, Sok Theng, Ching Ting, etc (too many to mention... Basically all the girls) looked beautiful too. All the guys too looked fab lol. I say especially Zhang Yan XD. Very cool :D. Wei Jian too XD.
Well all we did there was to eat and enjoy the performances by different people. The food was awesome EXCEPT the fish thing... Tasted horrible... After the dinner ended we spent like an hour taking pictures with people. Too bad I don't have a camera... Luckily I changed my phone so got to take some pics although its not as clear as those high class cams hmph...
After the picture taking thingy, our class or what was left of our class decided to go out and catch a movie and go lanning and stuff. First I was excited but when I heard we had to WALK to Cineleisure from freaking Esplanade, I gave up and went home with Kok Quan. Besides, the people who actually went there said there were no movie showing on that time. A BIG "L" sign on my forehead for them :P. Joking. Well, hope to see you guys again some other time...Feds Oreve yeah? LMFAO.
Oh and I might post the pictures from grad night later when Wei Jian gives me the rest of the pics...
Today we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ our lord. Well I celebrated yesterday night from 10 P.M. to 12 P.M. For the first time in 12 months, I revisited my Korean church community. When my brother and I got there, there were so many faces we didn't know... Before the mass started I MET WYNN AND JOHN!!!! OMG I was like so happy... Wynn's my SAS friend and John's my church friend. Sat next to Wynn during the mass and we talked about a lot of things that are happening at SAS. He said the Koreans "ditched"/kick out most of the Chinese people from our group... Didn't know that they were all separated... I miss them badly... Realised that I'm as tall as Wynn now. Last time I used to be his "walking arm-rest" because I was like... Short... John still has another head more than me... He doesn't stop growing... Was quiet during the mass because I wanted to listen to our Father. When I went for the confessions on Saturday, he told me to learn to love everyone, especially those who are closest to me. After that, I'm starting to look at the world differently. I used to hate other gangs when I see them on the streets but now I don't. I used to lose my temper really fast when my computer crashed but I don't. I don't know whether its because I changed OR because its Christmas. Probably both.
Went out to Orchard after our mass ended at around 1 A.M. today with my family. Took a video which turned out to be VERY funny lol. We were supposed to be taking video of all the decorations in Orchard road but my bro and I started to comment on other things like how filthy Orchard road was that time LOL. We were like "OMG Orchard road turned to trash!!". Should see the video lol. Anyways, today's Christmas and I hope everyone have a blessed day today :D. Hope you guys can get whatever things you wanted today LOL :D.
Check this video out... I hated the video even before I saw it BECAUSE it says GAROU team and there is no ROCK HOWARD (2nd fav male char). WTF? Whats a Garou team without Rock?... Loved the first battle between B. Jennet (One of my fav female char.) and stupid dumb-fuck Maxima because the stupid dumb-fuck gets kinda thrashed. HATED the second battle because it was B. Jennet VS Kula (My fav female char.) and Kula lost!!!! The dumbass bitch who is controlling the Anti-NEST team probably doesn't know how to block... Noob bitch. Kula gets thrashed because the guy DOESN'T FUCKING block. The third match, K' (My fav male char) basically DESTROYS B. Jennet by Crimson Star road/Crimson Starload. Fourth match, the "wild wolf" Bogard comes to fight K' Dash but PATHETICALLY he gets beated up. Last match really piss me off... The fucking noob doesn't block Mai's desperation move at the very end and K' loses. WTF? Fucking noob... Fucking Mai. And the fucking noobs (Yeah both sides) use their desperation moves like RIGHT infront of the enemy. Of course they'll be hit... IDIOTS. They don't even deserve to play KOF... Hope they spill water all over their PS2 just like DUMBSHITS as they are, and destroy the entire game so that they can't play anymore. As you all can see, I'm damn bored right now so I'm like describing the fight in the video heh. Nothing else to do anyways. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH K' SHOULDN'T LOSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Quiz thing. Just doing this because I have nothing better to do...
SEVEN favourite music at that moment: 1. Truth - Seether, 2. Remedy - Seether, 3. Fine Again - Seether, 4. World Falls Away - Seether, 5. Love Her - Seether, 6. Always - Saliva, 7. Bodies - Drowning Pool
SEVEN people i fancy (like): 1. My brother, 2. My dad, 3. My mom, 4. Tae Hyung, 5. Wei Jian, 6. Zilah, 7. Jin Yu, ARGHHHH THERE'S TOO MUCH TO WRITE!!
SEVEN things i say most: 1. Lol, 2. Cya when I cya, 3. Gayass, 4. Fag, 5. Juk el lae? (Wanna die? In Korean to my bro), 6. What the hell..., 7. Dude
SEVEN people needed to do this survey: 1. Wei Jian, 2. Zilah, 3. Jin Yu, 4. Kok Quan, 5. Edward, 6. Sharon, 7. Mei Hui, Again... Just like the last quiz, those I didn't mention can go and try it out anyways...
In the past 24 hours: have u cry? No worn jeans? Hell yeah (Jeans are all I have) met someone? Yes (duh?) done laundry? No (Thats my mom's duty) went hungry? No talked on the phone? No said i love you? No Do you believe in urself? Yes ur friends? Yes tooth fairy? Wtf? No destiny/fate? Destiny ghost? Not "ghosts" but spirits UFO? Hell no Friends and life? Yes do you ever wished you had another name? Yes because "Suk Bin" sounds so wrong in English do you like anyone? Used to... Not now which of your friends act most like you? No one (I told all my friends not to act like me or copy me so...) when you cried the most who was there? No one... what's the best feeling in the world? Sadness what's the worst feeling in the world? Anger
Which is better: Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate coke or pepsi? Pepsi (Coke's too sweet) love or lust? Love Your pick:Mac or KFC? Mac because KFC service sucks single or group dates? Single adidas or nike? Nike lipton tea or nestea? Wtf are they? cappucino or coffee? None do you smoke? Hell no and never will curse? Hell yea take a shower? Wtf... Yes DUH? The person who set this quiz probably doesn't shower then... think you've been in love? Hell yeah, my biggest crush, Chie Miyauchi like school? Yes want to get married? Yes and have ur own child? Yes 'believe in urself?' Yes think you are a health freak? Not really
In the past month... drank alcohol: Past month means how many months away?... Drank alcohol with TH and others around Feb... to the mall: This mean been to the mall right? Hell yeah... eaten sushi: Yes, last month been dumped: Well not dumped but rejected gone skating: Few months ago... dyed your hair: No have you ever played stripped game? No change who you were to fit in? No, my style is people join me and not I join them getting old age? If 16 is counted old, then yes you are hoping to get married? Yes
i love: God i feel: Stupid doing this quiz i hide: My feelings i miss: Korean drama Goong and Stairway of Clouds i need: My rd lens Oakley shades
SEVEN people you would want them to do - 1. Wei Jian, 2. Zilah, 3. Jin Yu, 4. Kok Quan, 5. Edward, 6. Sharon, 7. Mei Hui, Again... Just like the last quiz, those I didn't mention can go and try it out anyways... (Yeah, copied and pasted)
5 years ago i was..- Not proud of who I was 5 snacks which i enjoyed; 1. Sneakers, 2. Mars, 3. M&Ms, 4. Shin Ramen (Korean noodle), 5. Pokeys 5 songs which i know all the lyrics; 1. Truth - Seether, 2. Remedy - Seether, 3. Goong ending song, 4. Bodies - Drowning pool, 5. Always - Saliva 5 things i will do if i have a million dollars; 1. Buy a new Computer, 2. Buy a new house, 3. Buy my red lens Oakley Shades, 4. Buy my own auto-mobile, 5. Anything that comes into my path 5 places i would run away; Wtf? Run away TO? or run away FROM? Hmm I'll probably run away TO 1. Tae Hyung's house, 2. Chie's house, 3. To any garden bench where it is quiet and peaceful, 4. To any nearest shopping mall, 5. To any nearby church. And I won't run away FROM anywhere. 5 tings i would not wear; 1. Thongs, 2. Triangular underwears EVEN ITS FOR MEN, 3. Bikini EVEN FOR MONEY (Chie dared me to wear a bikini before but I refused even that time I would have done anything for her lol) 4. Rainbow colored shirt/pants/jeans/jackets, 5. Filthy shirts and pants beggers wear (Seriously if I do get to those kind of situations, I'll probably wear a box around myself) 5 bad habits; 1. Biting my finger (Not only the nails but the skin too), 2. Slouching, 3. Making the "Shhh" sign whenever I'm deep in thought, 4. Daydreaming, 5. Losing my temper really fast when I'm with my family. 5 biggest joy; 1. When my SAS friends like Sunny Han contacted me, 2. Whenever I'm going out with my friends, 3. Whenever the protagonists from any drama/anime/show/movie comes out on top even after going through many hardship, 4. Whenever I'm with Tae Hyung (Yeah, he gives me joy. Not that I'm gay), 5. Whenever I'm talking/praying to God. 5 famous person i would date; 1. Yoon Eun-Hae (Shin Chae-Gyung from Goong), 2. Han Ji-Hae (Yoon Jung-won from Stairway of Clouds), 3. Go Ah-Sung (Uh forgot the character name but the little girl who gets kidnapped by the monster in The Host), 4. Jessica Alba, 5. Last but not least DAOKTA FANNING!!!! (Well when she grows up a bit heh) 5 ppl 2 do tis quiz; Wtf? How many times did this freaking person ask this? And why 5 now? How gay... 1. Wei Jian, 2. Zilah, 3. Jin Yu, 4. Kok Quan, 5. Edward. Again... Just like the last quiz, those I didn't mention can go and try it out anyways...
I just wasted like half an hour of my life on this shit... Well best way to kill time
Today's Zilah's and Jin Yu's birthday!! Edward's birthday was on the 11th, and my Korean best friend and older brother, Tae Hyung's birthday was on the 13th. Unfortunately could not celebrate Ed's and TH's birthdays because Ed was working on his birthday and TH was already in NS. Well got to celebrate Zilah's and JY's today.
BUT before we even met up with each other, I went to lan shop with my brother... Played 2 matches of Starcraft and 1 match of Warcraft 3, DoTa Allstars... 1st match in Starcraft, (If you have no idea what the game is then skip to the next paragraph) I was protoss and my brother was Zerg... I created many Zealots, Dragoons, Reavers, and annoying High and Dark Templars. Created some Scouts, Corsairs and Arbiters too... I was winning his combination of Hydralisks, Zerglings, Mutalisks, Guardians, and Devourers BUT because of my STUPID mistake, I lost... Had no base defence at all since I use my units as my base defence... My biggest mistake is the fact that I ACCIDENTLY pressed on "Archon Warp" on my 4 High Templars which had all FULL energy... Was supposed to Psionic Storm my brother's Guardians to death but they warped into Archons... What a gay way to lose the match... The second match, I was Terran and my brother was Protoss. As usual I only created Battlecruisers at the beginning. Had around 24 Battlecruisers and they managed to get through my brother's oh-my-god number of Dragoons BUT they couldn't destroy the base. Later on I created Siege Tanks, Goliaths, Marines along with my Battlecruisers to give my Battlecruisers some ground support. The ground unit's weapon and armor level were all 0 so they did shit in the beginning. As they became level 3 (max) they thrashed my brother's combination of Carriers, and Dragoons to ANNIHILATE my brother's base. So won 1 and lost 1 in Starcraft. In Warcraft 3 DoTa, I picked my trusty Omniknight and my bro picked Bone Fletcher. He was no match for me. My Degen Aura slowed his movement and I hammered him to death. Was winning like hell BUT this fag I think spilled coke on the power cord or something or maybe he kicked it, and all the computers went blank... So it was a draw... GAY. Next time, the my mighty Protoss will not be destroyed by some pathetic Zerg.
Hmm so after the lan, I took 77 to West Mall to meet up with Wei Jian, Zilah and Jin Yu. Met Zilah on the bus and met Wei Jiand and Jin Yu later on. Went to Pastamania to eat dinner and Zilah treated us :D THANKS!! But actually, birthday people are not supposed to treat unless they're having a party... Zilah was supposed to receive the money from us but they refused so where did they go? Wei Jian. Was going to give Mei Hui a tip for serving our tables so well LOL but she refused too -_-. Whats wrong with earning extra money? lol joking :P. Gave Zilah and Jin Yu their presents and they opened it right infront heh... They read my card as well... -_-... Made me feel damn embarrassed heh.
After our dinner Zilah and Wei Jian had to leave so I accompanied Jin Yu around West Mall. Saw the people singing Christmas carols infront of the Christmas tree. LOVED the songs they sang. They sang with so much emotion I think LOL. Played Jurrasic Park with JY in the arcade and guess who's the top scorer for stage 2, 3, 4, 5, and total? ME. 1st place: JAM. MUHAHAHAHA. Have to remember this date. On Zilah's and Jin Yu's birthday, I got top place in Jurrasic park. Well I always do actually :P. Had to leave Jin Yu because my mom happened to be in West Mall at the same time... Anyways, gonna finish blogging for today... Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ZILAH AND JIN YU!!
Went out with Wei Jian and his cousin today. Did nothing much :P. We went to Bugis to eat lunch, play arcade and to do other stuff. Met Mr. Wong at the Bukit Batok interchange. He was going to the class chalet heh. Asked me the same question again "Where's my pork chop?". Hmm can't expect me to carry that around everywhere hoping to give it to him when I see him right? Probably when I have the chance I'll give him heh. Saw lots of great stuff at Bugis Street. Was my first time being there. Its like accessory, cool shirt, cool pants mania. Planning to go shopping with my brother there real soon... Heh. Planning to go lanning with my brother tomorrow for... STARCRAFT COMPETITION!! Hah. I think I'll kick his ass badly but hmm lets give him a try against my Battlecruisers MUHAHAHAHAHA. On the way back home I met my ex-lover heh. She was WITH her boy friend... Kinda feel sad... If we were together then I would have treated her so much better... Saw his boy friend smoking and at that moment, my blood boiled. Managed to keep my cool since she was there talking to me. Later on, I SMSed her and she said she didn't like smokers either "but still". Must be a really nice guy besides the smoking part... Well... I'm happy if she's happy... At least she was still smiling in joy next to her boy friend... I would have treated her better than anyone though... My first MAJOR crush......... I think I'm allowed to talk about these stuff since I have no crush at the moment... Hui Min thinks me of a friend only so I will too I guess... Just watched Stairway Of Clouds, Korean drama that has "Shin Dong Wook" as the main characted. I think he's my Korean idol now heh. He's good looking and his acting kick ass. Very sad ending this episode though. Its a good show, just like Goong so catch it somewhere heh. Some Korean dramas you guys HAVE to watch: Goong, Stairway of clouds, Dae Jo Young, etc. Lastly, a BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY to EDWARD!!!! Finally you join the big boys LOL. Happy sixteen eh?? Heh.
I want to go out so damn badly. So bored at home right now... Anyone want to go out and watch movies and stuff?? Or just hang out??... Talking to Zilah right now and can tell that she's also bored at home... It even says on her blog heh. Lets go hang out people. QUIT YOUR FREAKING WORK!! Heh joking. But seriously, you guys should spend more time with your friends since its after O levels and we're like stress free. Playing various games with Zilah now. Have nothing else to do... Over and out
Ok enough trash talk from me. I think I've been trash talking too much these days letting you people hear unnecessary stuff... So I'll go straight to the point. Its over. She even rejected going to the graduation night with me. Come on, friends can go together too but she doesn't want to... So I guess its all over for me. Good luck to all those other guys who are chasing after their crush. Guess this means I won't be dancing with her either but I'll still ask on the day... Her reply saying "I'm not going with you" to me came this morning at 11 A.M. so it ruined my mood for the whole day. Hmm... Since I won't be going with her to the graduation night, I'll be going with others or alone I guess. Others as in friends. Plus I'll probably start that "competition" of dancing with as many girls as possible... Other than that, the disco which is going to be from 12 A.M. to 1 A.M. on the same day as the graduation night is going to kick some serious ass. DISCO!!
Tae Hyung left today morning for NS... Can't believe he's really gone... He's supposed to be in US right now, studying in his super nice college (yeah, he's damn smart) but because of his brother he has to go to NS. If he leaves, then his bro will suffer heh. Expecting a call from TH tomorrow. All the best once again to him.
Hmm... Many things are not going my way these days. The computer was supossed to be moved to my room after my O levels but its still in the living room... I was supposed to get the red lens Oakleys shades straight after my O levels but I still didn't... I was supposed to get my weekly allowance of $50 from my parents so that I can buy anything I want but I'm not getting any... I was supposed to be "free" from studies until like January but my parents keep telling me to "revise" my freaking sec 4 stuff. WTF?
Bro told me to do this thingy long time ago but doing it now...
1.What is your phone brand?-Sony Ericsson 2. What are the last 3 digits in your phone no?-006 3. What does the second message in your inbox say? -"Thanks dude im actually excited about it." (Tae Hyung) 4. Who's the first person under M? -Mac Donalds 5. Who's the last person you rang?-My bro 6. Who was your last missed call from?-Wei Jian 7. Who's the second person under D?-Dillon 8. What does the last message in your inbox say?-"At my friend's hse." (Hui Min) 9. Who is the second last person under J?-Jin Yu 10. Go to your sent items. What is your 10th message about?-About the full moon 11. Who's the 4th person under S?-Shaun 12. Who's your network provider?-SingTel 13. How many messages are in your inbox?-22 messages (deleted all messages recently) 14. What do you have as your wallpaper?-Matrix-X (the weird Matrix) 15. Who is the second person under R?-No one 16. Who do you have on speed dial 3?-Dad 17. If you're on prepaid, how much credit to you have left?-Not prepaid 18. Who's the last person under C?-Cust Svcs (Wtf? I don't even know this number... Its those SIM card numbers...) 19. How many bars of signal do you currently have?-5 20. What do you have as your main ringtone?-Truth - Seether 21. Name 5 people to do this quiz: Wei Jian, Jin Yu, Zilah, Sharon, Yu Ting (Hell, even though your name isn't up here, you can just waste your time doing this if you want...)
Been doing the same thing over and over again for like last 2 weeks. Wake up, eat breakfast, play RO, let my brother play for like 2 hours, eat lunch, play RO again, switch games to Starcraft, play until dinner, eat dinner, have my "alone time", grieve, talk to myself, then sleep. Its like this almost everyday unless I go out or something... Its not boring though. Training my Ninja in RO and creating my Battlecruiser fleet in Starcraft is damn fun. Its like I'm really in the game.
Sigh... Tomorrow's the day Tae Hyung leaves for NS... He called me today saying goodbye... So sad... My life of boredom starts tomorrow that means... No TH = damn boring. I know I have you guys too my fellow 4E2, but TH is different you see?... He's Korean so its more easier for me to communicate with him... Plus he doesn't speak any languages I don't understand and his English is fluent, I think better than mine... Plus he's like one of the first friends I made when I came to Singapore. I think we were brothers in our past life or something. We have like same sickness, same allergies, almost the same personalities. Anways, all the best to him in NS...
Changed blog skin because thats how I feel like these days. "Walking alone". "Being alone isn't good for you~" heh a quote from RO. I talk to myself too much these days. Sometimes I'm like thinking about... Her like so much that I tend to daydream anytime. Usually I think of the Secondary school days when I could like see her everyday XD.
Other than that, graduation night is coming closer and I still don't have the freaking mask. The tux, I'm probably buying a new one at G2000 in Westmall. Yeah, forgetting the long black coat. If anyone find where to buy those masks for masquerade, then tell me ASAP. I still don't have my date yet either heh... I guess anyone's welcome right now since SHE only said "maybe". Hope its her heh...
She replied. Thats the good news. But she seem a lot more different than before... She used to keep the conversation going whenever I messaged her... Always used to accompany me by SMSing... Now, its either no reply, or those short messages which kinda makes me think she's saying "I don't want to talk to you right now/at all"... Why does this have to happen?... What went wrong?... When she gave me the short messages before the O levels, I thought she was busy studying and didn't want to be disturbed... Since the O levels are over now and since we're all damn free, thats not the reason she's sending me short messages... Seriously, what went wrong?...
More bad news. Well only for me at least. My ex-lover (the girl I USED to like)'s maid told me that my ex-lover kept on crying probably because of her boyfriend... Yeah, I still care for her as my best friend... I also used to tell myself that whoever makes her cry, I will never forgive them, and will make them apologise for making her cry... Not sure whether its the boyfriend's fault or not though... Yeah, so far my life after the O levels was so damn FUCKING stressful. I get "sudden mood changes" almost everyday... Its like, I'm happy over this thing, then freaking SUDDENLY I hate everything. Especially myself whenever I look in the mirror...
Even small things bother me now. Like today, when I logged on to my Ragnarok account, all my god-like items were stripped from my character... What the FUCK is happening to me?...
Anyways, at least I was happy from 3 P.M. to now (10:20 P.M.) because I went out with Wei Jian and watched Open Season. The "turn off your handphone" commercial by the Open Season characters was so damn lame but the movie was damn funny to me. Saw Mei Hui working but couldn't buy anything because we already had our dinner. Speaking of working... Almost everyone seem to ask me the same question these days... "So are you getting a job?" or "Are you gonna work?". The answer is hell no. I think working at our age is a waste of time. 18 and above would be the right age to me... Besides I have personal matters to attend to these days and work would only consume my time and waste my life. I can get $8 everyday by just doing dishes at home anyways...
Sigh... God, please give me strength...
SHUT UP. 10:06 PM
Aloha
James Lee Suk Bin Cllaro
"JaMess"
27 January 1990
Seoul, Korea
Korean
Millenia Institute
07S7
Symphonic Band
Wish List
Avatar (DVD Blueray)
Rollerblades
New graphic card/new computer
Left 4 Dead 2
Fear 2: Project Origin
Starcraft 2
