Monday, December 04, 2006
Good news?...
She replied. Thats the good news. But she seem a lot more different than before... She used to keep the conversation going whenever I messaged her... Always used to accompany me by SMSing... Now, its either no reply, or those short messages which kinda makes me think she's saying "I don't want to talk to you right now/at all"... Why does this have to happen?... What went wrong?... When she gave me the short messages before the O levels, I thought she was busy studying and didn't want to be disturbed... Since the O levels are over now and since we're all damn free, thats not the reason she's sending me short messages... Seriously, what went wrong?...
More bad news. Well only for me at least. My ex-lover (the girl I USED to like)'s maid told me that my ex-lover kept on crying probably because of her boyfriend... Yeah, I still care for her as my best friend... I also used to tell myself that whoever makes her cry, I will never forgive them, and will make them apologise for making her cry... Not sure whether its the boyfriend's fault or not though... Yeah, so far my life after the O levels was so damn FUCKING stressful. I get "sudden mood changes" almost everyday... Its like, I'm happy over this thing, then freaking SUDDENLY I hate everything. Especially myself whenever I look in the mirror...
Even small things bother me now. Like today, when I logged on to my Ragnarok account, all my god-like items were stripped from my character... What the FUCK is happening to me?...
Anyways, at least I was happy from 3 P.M. to now (10:20 P.M.) because I went out with Wei Jian and watched Open Season. The "turn off your handphone" commercial by the Open Season characters was so damn lame but the movie was damn funny to me. Saw Mei Hui working but couldn't buy anything because we already had our dinner. Speaking of working... Almost everyone seem to ask me the same question these days... "So are you getting a job?" or "Are you gonna work?". The answer is hell no. I think working at our age is a waste of time. 18 and above would be the right age to me... Besides I have personal matters to attend to these days and work would only consume my time and waste my life. I can get $8 everyday by just doing dishes at home anyways...
Sigh... God, please give me strength...
SHUT UP.
10:06 PM
