Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Goodbye Chie...
Last Sunday, 24th August 2008 was one of the sadest days of my life. Chie Miyauchi, my first love many others would say, left Singapore for good to Japan... Although her mom will still be staying in Singapore, I won't be able to contact her often... So as a farewell party, Chie invited me and some of her friends, Kiyoko, Tammy, Bella, and Karin (I knew everyone except Karin) to a dinner somewhere near the Esplanade on Saturday evening. Before I went there, I got her a small farewell present, which was why I was late for the dinner. It was good seeing Chie with all my other SAS friends. Kiyoko and Tammy didn't change at all. Bella grew taller, other than that, she didn't really change either. As for Karin, I got to know her during the taxi ride and the dinner. Really enjoyed dinner with my SAS friends and especially Chie... We took a cab back and I thought to myself that this might be the last time I hang out with Chie, unless she comes back to Singapore to visit. I was hoping that I'll alone with Chie under her lobby BUT apparently Karin was going to her house... So my plan kinda failed... I was serioulsy SAD... Anyways, I gave Chie her present and took ONE freaking goodbye picture with her cuz she was cam shy haha... I'm so gonna miss her... Hope she comes back to Singapore for Christmas with Taka so we can all hang out together again... All the best to Chie in Japan!
P.S. to Tae Hyung e hyung: Chie told me to say goodbye to you cuz she didn't have your number...
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3:43 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008
OP, Badminton, Sok's PW, Fifi's birthday party, Signature Park gang reunion
Recently, we had our PW OP (Project work oral presentation) and once again, I fucked up JUST like the first time. It seems like whenever I go infront of a group of people to give a speech, my tongue just ties itself to a knot. Can't blame myself only though. Most of us went up to present without knowing how our slides looked like... Jasmine was late for school so my plan of glancing through the slides during the first few periods wasn't put into action. My part of the presentation was seriously shit but most of my classmates and the teachers didn't have any criticisms regarding my speech. In fact, they said I was somewhat confident in presenting my part of the slides. Imagine what they'll say if I go fully prepared with small notes and all instead of the overview of the slides...
The badminton matches were intense these few days. Everyone is getting so competitive now. Its one of the reasons why I don't like to have rankings and tournaments... Anyways, I'm always making careless mistakes these days... One of the reasons why I wasn't able to raise my ranking up. I don't really care about ranking though since I'm up against my closest friends.
Hmm quite a lot of things to blog about... Next up is Sok Theng's PW. I have to say, her PW topic is similar to what I wanted to do, on musicians. She did her PW on this blind singer. Truely touching and inspiring. I kept on telling myself through out the exhibition that if a blind person can be successful, why can't I? So it got my hopes up haha. Last up for Sok's PW was this maze thing. Everyone had to go through different obstacles in the "maze" while blindfolded. I went through a similar thing before (Going through a maze while blindfolded) when I was young so it was like nothing to me. Of course I needed guidance on where to go and stuff. One word to describe the PW. Fun.
Fifi's birthday party was on Saturday in the same week as Sok's PW exhibition. The theme was childhood memories, which I detest. I was shy, emo and was a loner when I was young. Not in Korea but when I came to Singapore. So, thinking about my younger self, I dressed up in all black (To show the emo part). I went to the party earlier to help out with the decorations. At 5pm the party was scheduled to start. 4:45pm (I think) I got my make up on. Courtesy of Gerlaine haha! She put eyeliners for me to make me look even more emo. If I wore dark blue jeans and white long-sleeved shirt (No collar), I swear I would've looked like L from Death Note. Lots of my friends mentioned that. Anyways, most of the people didn't dress up. Even Fifi. Oh! Tina was there too!!!! Haha I missed her like crazy AND will miss her like crazy. She didn't change at all haha. Games came next which were like super chaotic. Some had to eat marshmallows* with wasabe or green chilli in them. I got to eat the normal ones 3 times haha! Lucky me. The candy collecting was uber chaotic. Following right after that was the birthday song for Fifi. Shao Wei took my shirt off saying "Fifi! You're birthday present!". Wth. Haha -.-. I wouldn't have mind if I was drunk BUT there were no Vodka. In the end, we had nothing else to do so most of us went home. Again, it was very fun.
Now for the main event, Signature Park gang reunion. On Monday, 2 days before our brother Taka went back to US, we decided to hang out in Signature Park, our home. I went there first to get the card from Chie's maid, Siti. She was so happy to see me haha! She called Chie out for me too =D. Again, I couldn't stop smiling =) She was still so angelic haha! Only thought of happy thoughts I have with my Signature Park family and nothing else to depress me that day. We played squash as usual. As usual, Tae Hyung e hyung was super funny, and our "warm up" match turned out super competitive haha! As usual, Chie refused to run and my brother and TH took turns copying how Chie played while Chie and I sat outside catching up on good times. Can't believe she's leaving Singapore... My first. TH, my bro and I decided to swim so we headed down to the bottom pool. We swam for like 10 minutes until the fucked up thunderstorm came. TH and I were competing who will the last one to leave the swimming pool haha. We both decided to get out BUT he took off his feet out of the pool last so he won haha. Then Taka, Chie's older brother, did something right for the first time. He booked pool for us from 8pm to 10pm haha. We were seriously impressed. Pool match was super funny as well. I have the video of TH VS Taka. I played a match once with my bro and once with Chie. My bro improved a lot. He almost beat me! Haha. As for Chie, you can say I went easy on her as always haha. In the end, I scored both the black ball and the cue ball so I lost =( =). It was an awesome day... Last day hanging out with Taka too. As for Chie, we're meeting her tomorrow! HAVE to take pictures... I have none with her =(. While at Signature Park, I though of all the little things I did for her and all the things she did for me. Can't believe she's gonna leave... It feels as if a part of me is getting ripped away from me... I'll make the last day with her as memorable as possible.
SHUT UP.
9:57 PM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
Drinking
I drank again just now. Can't seem to stand all the anger and the sadness inside of me without Vodka these days. Its only 8% so don't worry, I know what I'm doing. Vodka has different effect on me depending on my mood. I get either sad, angry, happy, or just drowsy depending on which mood I'm in while drinking. I'm kinda getting addicted to it. There was no Raspberry* one today so I took the Cola one. Tastes as good! I'm kinda surprised at myself actually. Last year, I told almost everyone I don't drink haha! People change I guess... Anyways, been thinking about "love" alot... I'm gonna settle somethings... Since Chie's leaving, I'll just be like real good friends with her just like Jessie... I've been thinking alot about certain someone in MI too... Ever since I met her and made friends with her, I couldn't stop thinking about her... Even though we're friends now, she'll still hold a special place in my heart. I'll do whatever I can do for her as a friend too... No more awkwardness between her and me now. I just want her to be happy. And if I can make her feel happy or brighten her day when she's down as a friend, I'll be more than happy to be her "friend" =). Hope my friends don't disturb me though haha. I'll just give them a really "weak" jab on the arm if they do XD. Haha Vodka brightened my mood already. Gonna watch NDP now. L8ter!
SHUT UP.
6:31 PM
Thursday, Reunion
I detest Thursdays. I have all my H2 subjects on Thursday plus GP. Chem and Bio are fun. Math and GP are exact opposite. I guess Math would be fun if my home tutor taught us. Being in a "better" class, we have this other teacher to teach us. I can't seem to adapt to the new teaching style. His voice is so monotonous that it makes almost everyone sleeps during class, even me. Speaking of sleep, I've been using extreme measures to keep myself awake in classes; hurting myself to keep awake (self mutilation to you people -_-). If you take a close look at my left arm, there are lotsa scratch marks or my initials, JL, carved out in block letters. I do these in class, to keep awake and it works! Yeah, anyways, I'm kinda self teaching math to myself these days. If there are questions I really don't know, I ask our home tutor, not our math teacher. GP lessons are as bad as Math lessons... Can't seem to concentrate for 2 full periods. When our teacher said "You're talking nonsense. You're wasting my time" to one of my classmate, I kinda lost the feeling of respect towards my teacher. According to my friend, GP teachers are supposed to argue back saying stuff like why they disagree or whey they think the other argument is bad. By saying those things she clearly prooved to us that she's not a reliable GP teacher... Later in the day was PE. Mr. Ser organized this "mini tournament" thing since we already learnt all the different types of shots. I was ranked 2nd. The tournament started and my friend Haikal challenged me and I lost -_-. My fucking killer shots were all going to the net and my back-hand and fore-hand smashes weren't even smashes at all. Maybe too many things were going through my mind, especially after I heard someone playing the piano backstage... I was sick also but so was Haikal. I swear, it was not my day. I lost to Shane, and Siva also. Whenever I smashed, the shuttlecock went straight into the net... I swear I could have destroyed the fucking racket if it was mine (Andy Roddick characteristics haha). I was swearing under my breath alot too. Speaking of swearing, one of my Year 2008 goals was try not to swear no matter how pissed or angry I was. I think I was doing a good job until recently -_-. These days, the word "Fuck" HAVE to go in some of my sentences in order for the sentences I'm saying to make sense. Like "I'm fucking tired", "You fucking bitch" etc. I hope I don't do it during OP. I was kinda shocked at myself when I said "You motherfucker" to Shao Wei when he tried to trip me. Bet he was shocked too haha. Oh saw her playing badminton again this time with Mr. Ser. Mr. Ser is damn good but she wasn't bad either. The atmosphere between us still feels kinda awkward... So I can't get myself to approach and talk to her yet... This is probably called a third party...
Anyways, I met with Taka and Tae Hyung e hyung yesterday to play squash. Chie was supposed to show up too but she was at her friend's place... Thinking of her leaving Singapore for good makes me even more depressed than I already am. Anyways, us 4, Taka, TH, my brother and I, played squash just like how we used to like 1 or 2 years ago. When it came to matches, I kinda played super seriously when the others were enjoying themselves. Unlike the badminton match, most of my critical shots went in. After squash Taka had to leave so the 3 of us decided to catch a movie at JE. On our way there, memories of that day flashed in my head. Her first and probably last treat to me was there; Apple Greenland. Anyways, we watched Mummy: The Tomb of the Dragon Emperor at 8:30pm. The movie was quite intense, with lots of action scenes and all. It was a little different from its predecessors though... Not enough humour from characters Rick and Johnathan, no Ardeth Bay, FUGLY actress for Evelyn, not in Egypt, the bad guy is not a mummy, and no Scorpion King. According to the book "The Revenge of the Scorpion King", Alex and Rick are supposed to be fighting the Scorpion King again because Anubis brought SK from the dead so he can raise the armies of Anubis again. I guess they decided to do something different this time... Some of the things that didn't make sense were: The 2 Chinese bad guys surviving after their car was fucking bombed by Johnathan, the Dragon Emperor controlling fire even when he was a freaking human, why The Dragon Emperor didn't just transform into a fucking dragon and killed both Alex and Rick etc. Through out the movie I was hoping Ardeth Bay to come out even for just a brief period of time... He never did. I give the movie a 4 star rating.
SHUT UP.
12:25 PM
Friday, August 01, 2008
School life
Thurday was a really fun day for me. Even the lessons were fun. Siva and I started talking about stuff during our GP time-assignment. Siva's damn funny! He wrote down all the quotes from different essay questions as his topic sentences. I wonder what kind of arguments he came up with though. I say, although he acts childish, he's really a smart guy haha. So I assume he knows what he was doing.
Math came next and for the first time, no one dozed off. Except maybe Shane, who was just resting his eyes haha. The questions we had to do were quite easy so I had fun with my GC, learning how to draw hearts and stuff. I got distracted by this and left my brand new line paper under the table!... I think I'm thinking more optimistically nowadays. I was like, oh well, at least the person who found the papers will get to use them or something haha. Maybe it was because that, or maybe because of going to church every Sunday haha.
Straight after math, I went down to the canteen to get my chicken chop with rice. I don't understand some people who waste their break studying/revising... Nothing is more important than eating. Nearing the end of our break was the class photo taking. 3 people were missing from my class... John, Sam and Fifi... Oh well, at least all of them are in last year's photo...
The whole class went for Chemistry a little late cuz everyone wanted to grab something light at the cafe. Mr. Liau, probably being the most caring and understanding teacher, didn't scold us or anything for being late (You'll know Mr. Liau better when you become a Chemistry Rep like me haha!). Chem was fun as always. Mr. Liau makes lessons fun nowadays. We're gonna have another quiz on Nucleophilic substitution on Monday... Great...
Biology was awesome too. Mr. Imran's teachings are more easier to understand now. The group answering thing was awesome. Shao was like doing his best to get points for the group (Yes, it was like a "if you get the answer, you get points" thing. Hard to see him like that during Chemistry or Math though haha.
PE came next. Heard the sports group people had to do physical training. Some of my friends complained. As for me, I would rather have physical training than games. Badminton with Mr. Ser is fun, but it doesn't really get me worked out. When we were sitting down listening to Mr. Ser, I saw her and Sok Theng play badminton at the furthest court from us. When we got to practice, I couldn't help looking at her XD. My buddy Haikal, took advantage of this and made me lose quite a lot of points. Yeah, and then I got really fed up, not with Haikal but with something else maybe. I gave Haikal some impossible-to-return shots (mostly net shots and super fast smashes). Too bad she had already gone to the back stage to play the piano. Should have seen the awesome shots I made HAHA! =P. When I heard her play the piano, I had flashbacks of her playing my Clarinet duet pieces with the broken piano in the SAC. Good times. Best times. One of the happiest memories of her I guess? (Actually all are XD)
After badminton was soccer time for me. Realised my skills were a bit rusty... I couldn't do step overs as fast, couldn't juggle the ball well, no ball control, and inaccurate shots. Oh well, at least I'm good in all sports. You just teach me how to play, and I can play well. Basketball, badminton, soccer, tennis, squash, floorball, volleyball... Everything. Just bring it on haha. Anyways, playing soccer with my classmates (guys and girls) was damn fun. Gracie was bimbotic as usual haha!
Yeah, so that concludes my Thurday. Awesome day! Wish everyday was like that.
Friday though, wasn't really a good day. My cynase came back! So I was literally dying during the Geography test... I was like whispering fucks and shits very frequently. The test was okay because it was an open book test. A level standard though. Shao's notes were freaking awesome. I swear, if Shao just works a LITTLE bit hard for his Biology and Math, he can be one of the top 10% of our cohert. Really hope he stays in MI next year... Won't be able to bitch about people or talk about personal life anymore if he leaves... I don't really like bitching but yeah, with Shao, it just comes naturally haha.
Just before band, I saw her at the canteen. I still don't know how to react whenever she's around. Sometimes I wish that we never told each other how we truly feel. I mean she is attached now (if I'm not wrong) and I still... Yeah... We could have been like meeting up after school in the canteen, waiting for our CCAs to start and stuff... Right? =). Or I wish she just told me she's together with another guy. Only this part. Anyways...
Band today was H O R R I B L E... Only like 15 of us out of like 35 turned up for practice... It was pathetic attendance... Most people had MI mart to prepare for and some were absent from school... So we had sectionals instead. During sectionals, I played the duet piece my mentor, Wei Lian gave me, with Aaron and Fikri. Didn't sound bad, but not good either. All three of us were sight reading so the dynamics weren't there yet.
Thats all I have to say for this entry. Its 12:37am now... I gotta wake up at 8am later to prepare for my tuition... -_-. I'll try to make my posts sound as cheerful as possible because I think my previous post, the super emo one, kinda made her upset... I just want her to be happy and by writing it like the previous post, it doesn't help her at all...
P.S. I want to know who the lucky guy is =P
SHUT UP.
11:33 PM
