Saturday, August 09, 2008
Drinking
I drank again just now. Can't seem to stand all the anger and the sadness inside of me without Vodka these days. Its only 8% so don't worry, I know what I'm doing. Vodka has different effect on me depending on my mood. I get either sad, angry, happy, or just drowsy depending on which mood I'm in while drinking. I'm kinda getting addicted to it. There was no Raspberry* one today so I took the Cola one. Tastes as good! I'm kinda surprised at myself actually. Last year, I told almost everyone I don't drink haha! People change I guess... Anyways, been thinking about "love" alot... I'm gonna settle somethings... Since Chie's leaving, I'll just be like real good friends with her just like Jessie... I've been thinking alot about certain someone in MI too... Ever since I met her and made friends with her, I couldn't stop thinking about her... Even though we're friends now, she'll still hold a special place in my heart. I'll do whatever I can do for her as a friend too... No more awkwardness between her and me now. I just want her to be happy. And if I can make her feel happy or brighten her day when she's down as a friend, I'll be more than happy to be her "friend" =). Hope my friends don't disturb me though haha. I'll just give them a really "weak" jab on the arm if they do XD. Haha Vodka brightened my mood already. Gonna watch NDP now. L8ter!
SHUT UP.
6:31 PM