Starlit Field Beyond the Flames

Friday, October 20, 2006

Today was our graduation... Finally we're graduated but it was very sad for me... Thinking back at all the memories from the day I went to YISS... Going to miss all of my besties, classmates, former classmates, her, and all the great teachers... Lots of thanks to the teachers who were always there for us and who always encouraged us to more and better. Felt very PROUD when I was going up the stage to shake hands with our dearest form teacher, Mrs. Barnwell. My friends said the MCs kinda LAUGHED when they saw my name. They pronounced it as SUCK BIN heh. Plus the MCs were my BAND MEMBERS. Ha. Still don't know how to pronounce my name?? Heh joking XD. Felt also proud to go up the stage again to receive a merit award for the kindness award thingy. Didn't know what it was about so was kinda shocked.

When we were in the class during the 2 periods before our recess, we had to apologise to every single classmate on things we did which might have offended others or things we said... Very emotional... Many were in tears. After I apologised to Mrs. Barnwell, I thought about all the good memories I have with my friends... I didn't cry but was damn close to it. I would have if it wasn't for Ivan. He kept me smiling by making jokes heh... He probably "understood" me since he's the longest, closest, and one of the first friends I made in YISS. From 2E1, to 3E2, to 4E2.

Gonna miss those times where I find myself staring at her the most heh... Every morning I come to school, as I'm walking to my usual place to sit by the canteen, I would turn my head to the left, the direction where she was sitting. I remember once my friends were sitting on my right side and they even shouted out "HI" like 3 times but I kinda ignored them because my attention was all drawn towards her heh... They had to like tap me to get my attention to them heh... Then JUST before the morning assembly starts, I would kinda stand on my marked spot, posing just to impress her and to look more cool infront of her. Will miss those times when I made eye contact with her almost every time I saw her. Then people like Umesh, Kok, Wei Jian, Edward, or Jin Yu will go like "Hey, she looked at you!". However, I'll try to forget those days when I saw her kinda flirting with other guys from her class. I still remember I punched the wall so hard that my knuckles were like swollen like oh my God. Why? Only Wei Jian and I know, I think... Well can't really complain or whatever about that because I think to her, I flirted with lots of girls in YISS too... It wasn't flirting to me but I bet to her it looked like it... So sad now... I have this long term effect thingy so I'll probably sad for the next 2 weeks. Again, I won't look sad but inside, I will be...

Sorry for the long post but I'm kinda pouring my heart out right now. Can't stop. Now the memories with my friends heh... Still remember the FIRST ever picture I took in class. Wei Jian brought his newly bought camera then took me and Zilah's picture together. Then around mid February, some of us went to Seoul Garden to eat our lunch on Friday after school. Good times... Then there was the Sentosa trip where we took our first neoprint with UMESH. Hmm, then the first time going out with the 4E1 girls; Li Jie, Angela, Sok Theng. Only Wei Jian knows this. Then just recently (after Prelims) going out with Kok, JY, and Min to the Jurong water park where we saw the people who we wanted to beat up so badly. I'll never forget all the PE lessons we spent enjoying ourselves playing soccer AND those times when we just played soccer on the basketball court outside of school. Then yesterday, the FIRST time "skipping" lesson. We escaped to the other class which was empty (duh?) and we played uh this "fighting game" where if you get hit in the chest and the ab areas you lose. Only played it with JY. Then it changed to wrestling and the person who falls down first loses. XD. Sorry if I'm not mentioning some of your names and some of the most memorable events... There are just too many to write about right now so this will do.

I'll be still going back to the school for band practices still I think. IF I'm free heh... Will have to be kinda like a "guardian" for my 3 Korean juniors; So Young, Na Young, Su Young. No they are not related to each other... Its just a coincidence that they have such similar names lol... I think I'll stop for today... Thinking back at all those memories make me REALLY regret graduating from YISS... Now I'm wishing how I had like a few more days in YISS to get to know my other friends more...

SHUT UP.
8:02 PM