Starlit Field Beyond the Flames

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Not my day these few days. I might be laughing and smiling in school but my mind is usually elsewhere. I guess my fake smile seem so sincere because no body can recognize the dagger stabbed deeply in me. I smile to make my friends feel happy around me actually. Only a few people actually know what happened. Will's word of comfort and advice was awesome... It was the best I've ever received. My good buddy Will became a cool, wise guy. Siva and Shane were awesome too. The duo never fail to cheer me up. Siva, being the more experienced one, had more to say haha. Last year, I was the one giving advice to him, but that all changed after he got together with his sweet heart. As for Shane, not really a word of comfort but made me laugh with his lame jokes haha. As for John, Haikal, Kamal, and Iszaki, I don't think they know. Shao Wei, as usual, was the one to talk me out of it. His reaction was the same when I told him about old times, when I used to like Chie and how she got together with her guy. He goes like "Oh, shit/fuck, that sucks dude!" Haha! They're awesome people... My brothers of 07S7... Can't do anything in school without them. Hope everyone makes it to next year... I won't be able to stand another close friend/brother leaving the class... Like how I saw Tina leave last year...

I still can't forget the SMSes. I try to remember only the happy memories. But that message gets in the way. She thought about what I said for quite a long time before she came up with her decision, which means she thought it through like carefully and made up her mind. Now I'm doing the same thing with what she said... Usually when the girl I like say those things to me, I just give up on going after the person straight away... Strangely, I can't seem to do that with her...

I didn't care what kind of person she was actually. I sure will like her just the way she is. I will change to be the type of guy she wants. And we can find out more about each other on the way. Like how Siva and most of my friends did... Maybe it was something I lacked?... Only she knows. But I thought of her words over and over too... And I won't... I can't...

Sigh, anyways, photo taking tomorrow... I'm gonna make my rhino/unicorn/astro boy/jimmy neutron/horny/tip of the ice berg hair style tomorrow (The hair style I used to do when I was in SAS). The weird names to describe my hair were all given by my friends -.-

P.S. Forgive my poor English if there are any. I was typing super fast...

SHUT UP.
12:02 AM