Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Whats wrong with me?...
Had OP Mock today with Mr. Teng (the Environmentalist Activist Group teacher) and I seriously screwed up.
I'm really at fault really, because the slides I was supposed to present were edited COMPLETELY by my group member like 12 hours before the presentation... I have to admit, I was freaking pissed off yesterday because I had to change MOST of my speech, and I didn't even know the content I was supposed to present.
My previous speech, was perfect. I didn't freaking need the little notes at all when I last rehearsed it. It was all memorized and I knew freaking well about the content I was presenting. I didn't understand why my previous slides had to go actually. My group member just changed it without telling me. Didn't even mention WHY her slides seemed better. I talked with my friends yesterday on MSN and they told me to go talk and reason with my group member... I didn't because I was so not in the mood to talk to that person. Maybe I wouldn't have been as pissed off if she told me beforehand that she was gonna change my slides...
Oh well... Forgive and forget; my moto (?) haha.
Right, so because my content was edited, my Mock OP was fucked up. I had to refer to my cards like alot beacuse I wasn't sure of the content I was presenting. My confidence was like non-existent too... Ms. Zhang said my hands were shaking uncontrollably. I didn't really notice it though cuz all I could think of that time was "Get this over with", "This is fucked up", "Can I stop?...". I bet if I used the previous slides, I wouldn't have been nervous at all. Like what Ms. Zhang said, I think I only present well if I know what I'm talking about. She mentioned me talking in band (making announcements and stuff) and told me to imagine as if I'm talking to my band mates during the actual OP. Not a bad idea, but I make lots of jokes and all haha (at least to my Clarinet section). Haha Ms. Zhang also asked me who in our class will make me all calm and stuff haha. I was like.. "no one"... Haha!
Lets hope I don't screw up for the actual OP.
P.S. No point mourning over a spilled drink... Lets prepare for whats coming =)... Cheer up...
SHUT UP.
6:15 PM
