Starlit Field Beyond the Flames

Sunday, January 04, 2009

While watching this really sad Korean drama, many things came into mind.
Its about love I always think about. How in dramas or in movies they make it look so easy to get the girl of your dreams when in reality its not...
Thats not the topic though. Its a what if scenario I thought of while watching the drama.
In the drama, there is this guy who is really loved by 2 girls.
I'm not gonna go into details. The guy is dating this one girl, who loved him for 7 years and did almost everything for him. The other girl is pregnant with his baby (Which he didn't want at the time) and refuses to go for an abortion (Good choice!! =D). Both girls really, truly love him so eventually he'll end up hurting one of them.
So when I saw this scene, I literally said out loud (In frustration) "What do you do when you're in that kind of situation?! (The guy's situation)"... I mean if you don't want to hurt either of the girls...
Maybe I'm in this situation too... Or at least was in...

People say love is kind, love is happiness right? Well, its not true to a certain extent (My opinion). All I got in return for loving that special someone(s) was pain (Yes, special someoneS. Because I had lots of special someones =P) and this maybe true to most of the people, I think. I've experienced all kinds of rejections (And am proud to announce). My crush/love thought of me only as friends, gets attached with someone else, likes/loves someone else, simply didn't like me, felt the relationship is not going to work out, not their type, went overseas, was in different schools, thought I'm too kind/too good for her, that I was her number 2 and many more. I've heard everything above at least 2 times. 1 word to describe how I felt: Ouch. And only ouch because I was too used to them. Except for first few times though. First few times it really hurt but after that they were all just "say-ouch-and-move-on"s.
Maybe thats why people call me a pimp or a player because I move on too fast -.-. Loving 1 girl for like 4 - 5 years have taught me to move on fast and don't waste time on someone who considers you a friend and nothing more. So can't blame me for having characteristics of a player...

Amazing what 1 scene in a drama can make me think about. No wonder I get occasional headaches.
I'll still stick to Min Min's advice. "Can look at girls without feeling guilty if your single".
Thanks again Min, for such an awesome advice =P

SHUT UP.
10:52 PM