Starlit Field Beyond the Flames

Sunday, April 26, 2009

3 years has past since my first ever blog post.
I was nearly brought to tears reading some of my previous entries just now. Especially when I read all the posts mentioning Tae Hyung e hyung, Sae Hyung, and Chie.

Miss those days when the Signature Park gang was still around. Those days when we all went out to the swimming pool at night or to Chie's house. I MISS CHIE SO MUCH RIGHT NOW =(. Plus when I saw her picture in Facebook, wow... Wanted to go back in time.
All those time spent playing squash together with Tae Hyung e hyung and Sae Hyung. Marco polo, ice-tag, movie outings, all the videos we took, the pictures. Memories which will always make my laugh/smile. I still meet them quite often so there'll be lots more memories to come.
The things I did for Chie. That dare at the basement. Will never forget.
Haha back then, the only girl I could think of was Chie so I wasn't all depressed or anything like how I am these days.

I want to create the remote control from Click with some additional features like THE REWIND BUTTON. Can't believe that awesome remote from the movie didn't have that function.
Off point.
I think everyone should create their blog and write about whatever things that happened to them every week or something. That way, they can always come back anytime to their blog, read and remember the moments. Lol. Those who don't update their blog often should at least blog once a week. Like me.

Going seriously off topic now.
I was quite disappointed that day.
When I sat next to her, she didn't even say a single word to me. When I tried to start a conversation, it just didn't seem to start. The awkwardness level was 99%... The first time she sat next to me it wasn't like that. It seemed as if we had tons of things to talk about but had no time.
Maybe she sensed that I like her. I don't show it to others but I'm sure it'll be super obvious to her. I don't just ask anyone out to one-one movie if they get bored of doing homework.
It feels like she's avoiding me sometimes. Like she talks to others no problem but its different when she's talking to me... It feels different...
I don't know what to do... =(

SHUT UP.
2:13 PM

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Humiliation

Band exchange at Hwa Chong was disastrous.

Our band was the most unprepared band there and we actually performed.

We were the 7th band to perform (Out of total 9 bands) so we got to listen to other bands perform first.

All the other bands had more members, and were about 90% prepared for SYF.

Our band on the other hand, lack members, and we JUST RECENTLY changed our SYF choice piece from boring Grade 4 piece, Cantilena, to Grade 5 piece, Finale from Tchaikovsky's Symphony No. 2: Little Russian.

Go listen to both songs if you people can find them online. Cantilena is WAY easier compared to Finale.

I kinda understand why Mr. Ong changed the choice piece. Cantilena will never get us a gold, no matter how well we play. Plus we'll be at a disadvantage as all the other bands' choice pieces are all around 9 minutes long. Cantilena? Like 3 minutes...

When Mr. Ong changed the piece, it gave me a little hope. That if we work hard for Finale, we'll be crying tears of joy on the SYF day because we achieved a Gold award and not Silver or anything below. Finale WAS something I looked forward to every band practice. Not anymore. Not after the exchange.

So back to the topic. After the 6th band performed their marvelous choice piece, we went up on stage. When we played the tuning note, I realised the acoustics of the stage there was WAY different from the RP one. When I played MF it sounded like FF.
Set piece: Overture No. 2 (Set piece for SYF).
As a band, we started off great. The balance was there and all.
Everything was fine for this piece I guess.
Well I have to admit I kinda fucked up at the Clarinet melody part (Bar F). What can I do? The fucking high D won't come out properly. I blame the reed completely. SOMEONE broke my best reed, Zonda 3 1/2, back at RP so I had to use a substitute.
So other than that, nothing really went wrong for this piece. I'm just disappointed because I know I could have made that section sound as good as, or hell, better than how other bands played it. I'm not a show off, I know my capabilities.
Choice piece: Finale
This song, when we played it during the exchange, was fucking disastrous.
I think everyone at least made a small mistake.
Again, I'm disappointed in myself for screwing up at the semi-quaver running notes part towards the end of the song. I think I was tired or whatever, I just couldn't double-tongue there, and had no breath.

I'm so not gonna let our band put up another humiliating performance ever again. I want the band to get a Gold. We seriously deserve it after all the long tiring practices we had, all the study/social time we had to sacrifice for band. Plus the results show it. Last year we got a Silver for the National Band Competition. It was the first time playing in a competition so we were quite satisfied with a Silver. Not to forget the year end performance we had last year. Almost everyone said we sounded great.
I'll at least perfect the parts for the Clarinet section. Its the least I have to do.

Speaking of being humiliated, I think people lose hope after going through such experience. Not me though. I'll make the SYF performance our revenge time. I hope other band members feel the same way too, about wanting to perform well during SYF and having a good laugh about the horrible playing at the exchange.

Its better to aim high and miss than aim low and hit.

Phew, I got most of my frustration out.
At times like this, I wish she was with me. Someone I can talk to (Of course, all the "fucks"s will be replaced when I'm talking to her =P)
I wanna see her!! =(.

SHUT UP.
10:02 PM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Yay!!

I can play Bella's Lullaby on a Piano!!! Haha only the melody part (right hand) though.
My left hand is retarded... So I can't play the accompaniment (left hand).
What I'm proud of though, is the fact that I never even learnt how to play the Piano/Keyboard and I can play it.. quite well HAHA! In addition to that, I don't even have the score for the song. I composed it myself.
I'm writing Serenity songs for my Clarinet part. Again, I don't have the score haha. Making one for myself by ear because I want to play it while reading the score XD. Thank God I have a Keyboard heh.

Anyways, for the entire day I've been wondering whether to message her or not. I want to get to know her more... Be more close to her so that who knows one day I'll be there for her or vice-versa. But I guess I didn't want to like know her through SMS... I'm a different person when through SMSes. I want to show her the real me, like when I'm really with her and not only by words. Maybe in time, she won't find it "weird" anymore haha.

P.S. I really hope our band gets Gold with honours for the SYF that's coming up. I'm seriously willing to put in my best for the band already. Pressure's on us that's why haha. Hope Finale: Symphony No. 2: Little Russian can guarantee us a Gold. We can do it. I just know it XD.
Go MISB!!!!

SHUT UP.
9:44 PM

Friday, April 10, 2009

Piano... Solo Clarinetist

I've always had this special thing for music ever since.. I was born.
When my mom had me, she always listened to classical music. Guess this is why.
So my first instrument was a Clarinet. Started playing when I was Primary 6 in SAS.
Back then, I didn't know anything about music so I wasn't really keen in picking up other instruments. I've changed over the years.

I want more than mastering my Clarinet. I want to master almost every instrument (Or at least know how to play nicely) from Eb Clarinets, Soprano Saxophones, Flutes, Violin etc all the way to Guitars, Trumpets, Pianos, etc. Whatever instruments that have solos or awesome melodies, I want to learn them. It was kinda to impress my friends (mostly girls) with music. Yeah, you guys can say I was a Casanova junior when I was young =P.

Out of all the instruments, I wanted to learn the Piano the most. The reason behind it is kinda amusing heh. I wanted to start learning the Piano after seeing Chie being SO impressed with Tae Hyung e hyung's Piano "skills" (I don't know what to call it haha). The two of them would talk about different pieces they could play. Of course I couldn't join in the conversation because I only played the Clarinet.

So why do I suddenly bring this topic up on wanting to learn the Piano?
Thanks to songs like Carter Burwell - Bella's Lullaby, and my blog song (instrumental version). Beautiful compositions.
I want to learn Piano so badly but there's no time =(. I know if I practice hard, I'll be able to play at least like an intermediate player after 2 months or so... Oh well, until then, I'll master my Clarinet. Tone, sound quality, all the possible alternate fingerings for different notes etc. I got no problem at rhythms so once I master these, I'll at least be considered as an advanced player by others and will qualify to be a Solo Clarinetist with minimum requirements. Hopefully.

10,000 hours of practice makes a genius. Never stop practicing~

SHUT UP.
3:49 PM

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Definately

I'm definately falling in love again.

Just by looking at her makes me smile even during difficult, tiring times.

I have to really force myself to look away whenever our eyes meet.
Its like there is a mysterious force which draws me towards you.

Its because of her I enjoy "doing" the most tiring, and time consuming thing I have to "do".

Its definately love, the feeling I have towards her.

I remember in the one of the posts, I mentioned I was gonna wait?? Hell no. I can't.
Hope she SMSes more haha...
I'm so gonna make the first move. Kinda shy though. Wish me luck? =P.

SHUT UP.
8:18 PM