Starlit Field Beyond the Flames

Monday, October 30, 2006

Hilarious dance video. Nothing scary really. Do the Grudge!

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10:45 AM

Friday, October 20, 2006

Today was our graduation... Finally we're graduated but it was very sad for me... Thinking back at all the memories from the day I went to YISS... Going to miss all of my besties, classmates, former classmates, her, and all the great teachers... Lots of thanks to the teachers who were always there for us and who always encouraged us to more and better. Felt very PROUD when I was going up the stage to shake hands with our dearest form teacher, Mrs. Barnwell. My friends said the MCs kinda LAUGHED when they saw my name. They pronounced it as SUCK BIN heh. Plus the MCs were my BAND MEMBERS. Ha. Still don't know how to pronounce my name?? Heh joking XD. Felt also proud to go up the stage again to receive a merit award for the kindness award thingy. Didn't know what it was about so was kinda shocked.

When we were in the class during the 2 periods before our recess, we had to apologise to every single classmate on things we did which might have offended others or things we said... Very emotional... Many were in tears. After I apologised to Mrs. Barnwell, I thought about all the good memories I have with my friends... I didn't cry but was damn close to it. I would have if it wasn't for Ivan. He kept me smiling by making jokes heh... He probably "understood" me since he's the longest, closest, and one of the first friends I made in YISS. From 2E1, to 3E2, to 4E2.

Gonna miss those times where I find myself staring at her the most heh... Every morning I come to school, as I'm walking to my usual place to sit by the canteen, I would turn my head to the left, the direction where she was sitting. I remember once my friends were sitting on my right side and they even shouted out "HI" like 3 times but I kinda ignored them because my attention was all drawn towards her heh... They had to like tap me to get my attention to them heh... Then JUST before the morning assembly starts, I would kinda stand on my marked spot, posing just to impress her and to look more cool infront of her. Will miss those times when I made eye contact with her almost every time I saw her. Then people like Umesh, Kok, Wei Jian, Edward, or Jin Yu will go like "Hey, she looked at you!". However, I'll try to forget those days when I saw her kinda flirting with other guys from her class. I still remember I punched the wall so hard that my knuckles were like swollen like oh my God. Why? Only Wei Jian and I know, I think... Well can't really complain or whatever about that because I think to her, I flirted with lots of girls in YISS too... It wasn't flirting to me but I bet to her it looked like it... So sad now... I have this long term effect thingy so I'll probably sad for the next 2 weeks. Again, I won't look sad but inside, I will be...

Sorry for the long post but I'm kinda pouring my heart out right now. Can't stop. Now the memories with my friends heh... Still remember the FIRST ever picture I took in class. Wei Jian brought his newly bought camera then took me and Zilah's picture together. Then around mid February, some of us went to Seoul Garden to eat our lunch on Friday after school. Good times... Then there was the Sentosa trip where we took our first neoprint with UMESH. Hmm, then the first time going out with the 4E1 girls; Li Jie, Angela, Sok Theng. Only Wei Jian knows this. Then just recently (after Prelims) going out with Kok, JY, and Min to the Jurong water park where we saw the people who we wanted to beat up so badly. I'll never forget all the PE lessons we spent enjoying ourselves playing soccer AND those times when we just played soccer on the basketball court outside of school. Then yesterday, the FIRST time "skipping" lesson. We escaped to the other class which was empty (duh?) and we played uh this "fighting game" where if you get hit in the chest and the ab areas you lose. Only played it with JY. Then it changed to wrestling and the person who falls down first loses. XD. Sorry if I'm not mentioning some of your names and some of the most memorable events... There are just too many to write about right now so this will do.

I'll be still going back to the school for band practices still I think. IF I'm free heh... Will have to be kinda like a "guardian" for my 3 Korean juniors; So Young, Na Young, Su Young. No they are not related to each other... Its just a coincidence that they have such similar names lol... I think I'll stop for today... Thinking back at all those memories make me REALLY regret graduating from YISS... Now I'm wishing how I had like a few more days in YISS to get to know my other friends more...

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8:02 PM

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Hair cut...

Had my haircut today... Told the auntie to just trim but it became quite short... Shouldn't have moved schools :P...

School's ending soon and I'm gonna miss all my friends I made in YISS... Sure I'll keep in touch with them but the sad thing will be we won't be able to see each other everyday.

O level is next Tuesday and I'm still sick... Thought it was fever at first, but its like a VERY bad headache... The interesting thing is that I can memorise things better when I'm sick or something. I'm like more concentrated when I'm studying. I won't make the same mistakes I made in all my mock papers and my Prelims... Looked through all my past exams and realised that I kept on making a same errors...

Besides the O level, graduation dance is coming up too... Just realised whether the graduation dance will be the same as in SAS... Well excluding the price you have to pay... SAS = $100 per person and $50 for a pair (boy and a girl)... Not sure of the exact price but it was somewhere around there... So be grateful that YISS didn't charge that much...

Next Friday is also graduation ceremony... I'll be VERY sad but I can control my emotions... So I don't cry so often. Che... I have to go through this again... First it was leaving Korea and all my good friends there, then leaving Austrailian International School and all my good friends there, then leaving Singapore American School and all my good friends there, then now its leaving Yusof Ishak Secondary School and all my good friends there... So sad... Plus I had crushes in all 4 schools... None of them accepted me XD. This I find it quite funny. Don't ask because I don't know why.

By the way, shall I change skin again? The songs in the current skin doesn't work... -_-

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10:11 PM

Friday, October 13, 2006

Sad...

So sad right now... Firstly I'm sick and my voice like became WAY deeper... Secondly, in Smallville, Clark (the dude in my blog skin) and Lana (love of Clark's life) broke up because Clark didn't want to hurt Lana anymore by hiding his secrets and doing stuff behind her back and stuff... I swear, Tom Welling's acting was so damn good... He looked so pitiful. Then the message from the lifebeforedeath website came out... So sad... Everytime I hear "lung cancer" I'll remember of my grandfather... So yeah... Sigh... It reminds of me also of the photograph that bring me to tears...

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9:00 PM

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Sick...

Was really sick today morning... Had stomach ache, head ache, sore throat, and slight fever... Even though I was sick, I went to school and took the Social Studies Mock Exam... Thought of giving up since I couldn't concentrate and because I thought my eyes were gonna pop out of me. I was gonna give up on Structure Essay Questions but when I saw the question, my confidence was boosted. Picked the first question, about the Protestants and the Catholic conflicts. I memorised the points quite easily because I was imagining that I was really in Northern Ireland as a Catholic when I was studying yesterday. I think I did well...
Math came next and we received another worksheet... This time it was Trigonometry worksheet. Wish all the questions in the O levels were all from Trigonometry... Then finally time for me to rest came during mother tongue and recess. During Geog, we did the group activity again but this time it wasn't so exciting because the answers had to be written and nobody really wanted to write. However, it was effective and I learnt how to answer those questions so that I can get full marks now. English came next and I think I know how to convince people better now when we have to write flyers. All thanks to Mrs. Barnwell's explanation. The last period was free period for us since Mrs. Barnwell had to leave. Didn't go for Chemistry remedial since my fever and stomach ache came back that time. Umesh accompanied me to the bus stop even though I said it was ok for me to walk there alone lol. Umesh probably thought I was gonna faint or something. Heh good friend. Thanks Umesh!! By the way, Wei Jian, don't give me your belongings anymore... If I forget about it and accidentaly take it, then I'll feel guilty...
Reached home, rested for a while, then studied again... Forced myself to study. I was the only one home since my bro was out playing soccer and pool. When he came back, he wasn't happy about something. Found out that it was because these 3 secondary sluts and 4 primary small fries suddenly interuppted my brother's pool game and told them to get out. My bro asked why and they said just get out... WTF?! My bro didn't want trouble and just got out with his friends... Too bad I wasn't there... If I was, then those 7 small fries would have been the ones going out. Think about it... If you are secondary 2, and these 3 older girls and 4 kids ask you to get out because they want to play pool. Would you? Sigh... Gotta teach my bro how to fight and how to act tough...
Another bad news... I have to cut my hair... Goodbye my long fringe...
By the way Wei Jian, Gary Neville's own goal was HILARIOUS!!

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10:29 PM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Miss all the yummy food... -_-

When I was in SAS, I couldn't stop gaining weight. I was super short compared to my other friends so I always forced myself to eat so that I'll grow taller. SAS had many variety of food unlike YISS... Every Monday they had Sheperd's pie... Its like Mashed potato but has either Chicken or beef in them... YUMMY... Wednesday was the chocolate doughnut day... 1 doughnut for 40 cents. The doughnut was super big also. Around 10 - 15 cm diameter. Unlike, YISS, they had only one store but had A LOT of different foods and drinks. Foods like Charsiew noodles, Charsiew rice, Chicken rice, Black pepper chicken rice, Sweet and sour pork rice, Hotdog, Sandwiches, and even hot water for cup noodles... How I miss all those YUMMY food in SAS... YISS don't have much to me... The noodles in the stall doesn't taste good to me. Plus, there are only a few junk food so I can't get fat or whatever... Why I'm blogging about this? Because I saw my SAS yearbook once again and there happened to be a page of people eating the chocolate doughnuts!!... I MISSSSSS THE FOODS OMGOMGOMG.

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9:26 PM

Monday, October 02, 2006

Biology Mock Exam

Had Biology mock exam today. The paper was ok except the essay part again. I feel that I didn't answer the question completely... Then the plant thing was the killer. Didn't really study plants but still can get marks though. Hope no plant comes out for the O levels.
The mother tongue period after recess was HEAVENLY. Well its not the first time I talked to her one on one also... When some of the band members went for the usher thing, I sat next to her during the entire concert. Thats the first time I think. Today was just like normal conversation. As friends only so no romantic talks or whatever... Thats what she want our relationship to be, friends. Friends still can go together for the graduation night heh. Zhang Yan told me that he also asked her to dance with him during the graduation night... She didn't reply according to Zhang Yan. Might be a yes lol... Anyways, I only won't like it when some random guy goes up to her and asks her to dance with him. I don't mind friends dancing with her, really. Some more Zhang Yan is older than me so must respect him also lol.
Went to McDonalds with Wei Jian to study for Chemistry. Zilah couldn't come because her mom was on her way home and Sharon didn't reply so we ditched McDonalds at around 6 and went to the arcade to take out some stress. Played 7 matches of snooker there. Wei Jian's treat but I will pay him back half. Won him 6 to 1 MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. 4 times, Wei Jian put the black ball in thus ending the game ironically since he was building momentum. When he gained some confidence, he rammed his stripe ball towards the black ball which was RAMMED inside the hole for 4 times. 2 times, I cleared all the balls and finally the black one in STYLE. It was like all pro shots except the shots where the white ball went in also... The VERY LAST ROUND, my white ball went in along with the black ball so I lost... Boo hoo.
Wei Jian then went home in a cab, ditching me. Later I found out that he forgot or lost his house keys and couldn't go in his house. I taunted him by telling him that I was eating dinner at that time, and that it tasted VERY delicious. He was playing soccer with Zilah's dear Danial* and Zilah was there too lol. Why did Zilah go there. To accompany Wei Jian? NO LMFAO. Just not Wei Jian's day today lol. And right now, in his MSN nickname, he put "Don't disturb me, preparing for MATH paper 2" when it is CHEM paper tomorrow. LMFAO. What happened to you Wei Jian? lol. All the best to all for every mock exam coming up lol.

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10:38 PM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Learn to see good in people...

Went to church today and learnt that God wants all of us to see and judge people by their good things. Don't judge people only by all the bad things they have or had done. We have to see good in people to bring them closer to God and not to drag them down away from God. For example, those people in jail who took drugs. Everyone has some good in them. Everyone's "mission" is to notice good in people and to help them rise towards God. Sorry if it doesn't make sense in a way... Tried my best to rephrase it in my own words. The meaning is same ofcourse.

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7:49 PM