Starlit Field Beyond the Flames

Sunday, November 30, 2008

OMG today was the last episode of the drama "Great King Sejong (대왕세종)"... Its a historical drama about the greatest king in the Joseon (조선) times. My ancestor =D.
The drama was awesome from beginnng til the end. As the drama progressed, my respect towards the Joseonese scholars and Sejong grew. The way they speak and argue in terms of politics is seriously WOW.
The first few episodes were about how the 2nd son of Taejo (태조) would become the king instead of the 1st son.
Later part of the drama focused on Sejong's reign. About the territory expansion to the Yalu River (Currently North Korea)?? I forgot -.-. And creating the new writing system. Now I realise how "special" Korean is. Korean can describe certain things other languages don't even have words to. Feelings, objects, or just "action words" like *sigh* etc. No wonder foreigners find it difficult to learn Korean! Only those with Korean blood can learn them perfectly =P.

Oh, and my blog song is the OST from the drama =D. Super nice!! (Well at least to me). Ask me for the track if you want =D.

Hmm... I wonder what other historical drama KBS World will broadcast since Sejong's over... I hope they do on General Yi Soon Shin haha. My all time favourite figure when I was young.

P.S. There is something I'm really bad at afterall! -.-

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10:32 PM

Friday, November 28, 2008

Ragnarok

I started playing Ragnarok Online again =D.

Playing on Spiritus RO (Private server, absolutely no lag, no wipe, 100% free).
So do tell me if you play RO and want to play on the server I'm playing on~
I can give you free items/money etc XD.

While playing RO, I found some "links" to the Ragnarok comic book series which was canceled half way, and the game. When I was doing the Thanatos quest, I actually read all the carvings on the walls in the game when I didn't have to. Then I came across this: "I am Thanatos". 3 words told me lots of things. It meant Thanatos was actually a human in his earlier life before becoming one of the most strongest Boss Monsters in the game. Then I remember the scene in the comic book about this guy called Tanat fighting the Demon King Surt. The appearance of Tanat looks exactly like Thanatos!! And the appearance of Tanat looks exactly like Assassin Loki!! So... Loki is Tanat reborn in the comic. Thanatos is the "evil" self of Tanat...
Imagine if this was a low rate server... I would have lost confidence to fight Thanatos the moment I found this out cuz Tanat is freaking strong in the comic -.-
Of course, at the end of the quest, my level 500 Assassin Cross manhandled Thanatos =D. It didn't drop a card though...

All I need to make my character Godlike is Thanatos Card, Kiel-D01 Card, Tao Gunka Card, and Amon Ra Card... Which are all freaking hard to get!!... I killed these MVPs more then 100 times already... Card drops at a 0.01% chance... So I have to kill them 1000 times just to get 1 freaking card... Hope I have that much time though, and hope the server don't close down or something.

I think I'm gonna restart sketching comic characters again =D.

P.S. Playing Sudoku with Gracie is super funny!! Haha.

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10:01 AM

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Class outing, Down with a bad cold

Yesterday was the 07S7 + 1 07S5 class outing!! Was really excited cuz we were gonna rollerblade/cycle again at East Coast!!
Can't be considered a class outing though. Cuz only 6 of us (Not including OWL) turned up... Hmm, pathetic.
I didn't really care about who were gonna turn up though. It was good as long as we all had fun.
So the peopled who turned up were: Claudia, Gerlaine, Kelly, Jon, Wei Lee (OWL), Shane (Was late), and myself.
Jon and I were on blades again. Gerlaine was deciding whether to cycle or blade until I told her "Blades are only for cool people". The others were cycling.
Lucky Jon has his own blades so he didn't have to spend any money. Gerlaine and I had to pay $10 for 3 hours. It was WAY cheaper than other shops since they were offering 50% discount to all bladers. The blades stank like omg though... The wheels on my blades didn't spin properly too so I had to put in extra effort just to go fast, which was fucking tiring...
We travelled in packs. We didn't leave anyone behind. Can't believe Gerlaine forgot to take out her camera from her bag!! HAHA!! So I brought mine instead, thus I was the camera man for the day.
We went to lots of places like the bridge place, the jetty, the round place thing we went to last time, etc.
Haha and I was finally taller than OWL!! Gerlaine kept on saying "This is my ideal height" when she was on blades XD.
I tried to race OWL, who was cycling, on the crap pair of blades I rented. Bad choice haha. You wait until the time when I get better pair of blades... =D
Carl's Jr. came after that. I wasn't really feeling well NOR hungry that time so I couldn't eat properly -.-. Drank too much isotonic drink before, during, and after rollerblading... Yeah, I'm weird.
So, overall, the "class outing" was super fun (Even with a small number of people).
Hope we get to stay out even later next time people!! Sorry I had to leave early that day -.-
Can't wait for next time~ (Of course it won't be East Coast. Right? =P)

Okay... So about today...
Was down with sinus the whole day today... Fever and headache in the morning only... Whenever I get sinus, my body becomes extremely cold and I start sweating. So even a slight breeze makes me feel cold cuz of the freaking cold sweat...
Thank God for creating Starcraft though. I literally forgot I was not feeling well when I was playing with my brother.
When my brother went out, I spent a few minutes hugging our rice-maker (I don't know what its called in English...) and playing with fire in an attempt to keep my body warm. I think I burnt away all the hair on my arm today... Lots of thanks to my SAS friends for buying me the Playboy Zippo lighter =D.
Heat is my source of strength.

Okay, I'm literally dying right now so gonna end this post... (Cuz I'm sick)
Time to play with fire again~
Don't worry nothing will catch fire. Except for me that is =P

P.S. How would it feel like if your blood is boiling and you're still well alive?? XD.

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10:47 PM

Monday, November 24, 2008

KSWS, Stuff I want to blog about...

Went to watch Kim Seng Wind Symphony perform today with C.Y., Yvonne, Keng Guan, Hui Min (MI CL ASL), Shikin, Hafizah and Xian Hua.
I became a loyal supporter of KSWS after my "senior", Wei Lian, joined.
Their performance was great. I kept thinking to myself whether I can join their band after my A levels... I probably can, as a reserve incase one of the Clarinet player can't perform for the concert or something... Such a bad player like me probably can't join those bands IF they have auditions...
Anyways, they performed familiar pieces like "Howl's Moving Castle" and "Pirates of the Carribean". They are 2 pieces IJC/MI band played so I have the scores.
I saw some familiar faces among the performers besides Wei Lian too. There was Sze Hou (JB boi), Shiying and Andre!! All 4 players we know played solos!! Freaking awesome. Wei Lian's Solo came in around the end of 2nd or 3rd song~ Then he played another solo for the Pirates. Awesome tone quality!! Wei Lian's awesome! Andre's solo was the starting of the "Howl's Moving Castle". Again, awesome tone quality and pitching. It was really amazing. Sze Hou's solo was the timpani solo during the first song. Super nice since the drums and timpani were the only 2 instruments being played. Then Shiying played on the drumset for the "Music from the Incredibles". She certainly got the band and the audience going there haha.
5/5 star concert. A must watch/listen!
Hope I can join their band in the future...

Hmm besides that, I really want to blog about lots of things that are happening in my life.
But I can't...
I really want to talk about these things to someone... Someone whom I trust with my life and someone whom I don't feel awkward talking about those things to... Aish was probably the only friend I let everything out on. She's seen the bad side of me as well as the good side of me. I'm sure most of you only saw/know the good side of me though... Aish is someone I can cry my heart out to. I miss her... Like she said, she went off at a WRONG time... Curse you Aish!! Tomorrow you'll have multiple bird shits falling on you!! Grrr...

P.S. Waiting patiently

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12:11 AM

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Family outing, Class outing, Band outing

Had our family outing today~ Nothing much really. Just having dinner and shopping in Westmall. Its been a while since my family had dinner together in Westmall. It was always to Sushi Tei at Holland Village the other times haha.
Ate Korean food again~ I'll never get sick of that store. The "nice" auntie wasn't there today though... She probably recognize me as the handsome Korean boy who never gets sick of their store HAHA! "Shameless".
Had a little guy chat with my dad and brother today when my mom went to buy her food. The conversation started with me spotting a girl who looked like 3 of my friends combined haha. So I found her really pretty and told my dad and bro to see her (Of course take secret glances!). Both of them were like.. "She's so not pretty...". My dad even said "You're not like me... I don't have that bad taste..." in Korean!! OMG. Then my dad went on to how we should find girls haha! Super funny. My dad was like "You can date 3-4 girls at once! Like how I did when I was your age (and dating your mom)". Of course its a joke!! He also told us about how he used to just approach random girls and ask for their number as a dare! Omg its something I don't think I can ever do haha!! My dad's my idol =D
Ya then my mom came back so we dropped the topic XD (She knows what we were talking about though).
After eating we went to Sol Mart (솔마트) to buy food which are shipped straight from Korea. I accidently said "Ssbal (씨발)", which means fuck, out loud in the shop!! Thank God no one else were Koreans (I know cuz no body turned their head to stare at me) (And yeah, my parents don't really mind me swearing now =D). We purposely talked extra loud in the shop after that, to tell everyone we were Koreans haha. We acted as if we own the store too. Pointing out differnt chips we used to eat when we were still in Korea haha. Super fun with mom and dad around too.
Was supposed to get a new phone today but the freaking Singtel shop was fucking crowded... Guess I'll have to wait... I don't know which phone to get!! I'm kinda low on budget so I'll just get the free one this time... Haha! Anything's better than the one I have now...

Hmm ya so family outing done~ Class and band outing left.

Class outing is on Monday!!!! Woo hoo!! Like our first ever outing after the exams... Kinda pathetic haha... Hope lots of me classmates will show up.
Gonna have to leave early during band practice though. I'll just take the section photo, photocopy scores and leave I guess. DAMMIT! I'M GONNA MISS LUNCH WITH MY BANDMATES!! T^T (Supposed to be Pasta).

So class outing coming up. Next one I gotta prepare for is the band outing which JOJO will plan. Jo! Hurry up with the planning!! And turn 18 fast so we can all get drunk =D.
Can't wait for band camp and band chalet also!! We're gonna sneak in drinks again to band chalet haha! And this time, I'm gonna ask Edward, Alex and Derrick to save up some of their drinks for me too... Hope Hilmi comes =D

Hmmm even with all the fun events coming up, I still feel kinda sad. Something's missing...
Oh well. I'll try not to think about it.

P.S. I can delete my MSN account already -.-

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11:39 PM

Band Practice(s)

Today's band practice was so tiring!! Well at least to me cuz I didn't get enough sleep (Slept at 3am).

Worked on Celebrate and Jungle today. Jungle's such an awesome piece to play (Because I play 1st Clarinet =P). Mr. Ong told us (Clarinet section) to work on the semi-quavers for Celebrate before we had to do sectionals. I took sectionals today since I was lazy to photocopy scores. The semi-quavers in Celebrate would be much easier if the notes are not tied... From 3rd beat, 3 semi-quavers are tied, then another 3, then 2 by it self and accented... Gotta practice alot... We decided to split parts so like it would sound as if we're passing the music around. Gotta make sure we play as smoothly as possible. So ya, sectionals was awesome today. Had to raise my voice though cuz it was so noisy with the brass practicing their own parts and all. I got to conduct again! =D. I always feel like being the Student Conductor these days instead of being a Librarian. I mean I did learn conducting (Although some people are not familiar with my conducting... -.-) =P.
And~ Special thanks to Shi Hua for that SMS today!! XD. It actually made me LOL =D. Haha thanks to you too for being so patient with my teaching haha (Like I said through SMS =D). And don't practice so hard until your teeth hurts okay?? =).
Oh and I kept squeaking today!! Its either my 7 year old Clarie or the reed... I hope its my reed... Don't want to send my Clarie for repair for the first time. I took such good care of it for 7 years now! I rock!

So, after the band practice, Mr. Zachery Lim ordered us "Chewy Juniors" because of our commitment to band. Clarinet section got 2 each cuz MOST of us turn up for band practices everytime, and on time as well. Not only the Clare section, but others too of course haha. The usual people who turn up for practices. Edward got to eat 3 pieces!! The 3rd piece he ate was actually supposed to be Mr. Lim's if I'm not wrong since Ms. Huang couldn't eat haha! =P.

Anyways, my fringe is annoying the living hell out of me these days... I so need a hairclip (Following SOMEONE's advice =P). Get me a hair clip people! =P. Why're you laughing? I'm serious! Or a hair band too. I don't mind.
I remember Hui Min (From YISS 4E1) say I look as if I'm literally sick/ill/diseased cuz of my long hair haha! Ouch.
I don't look like that right?! =S. Hmmm but I prefer to be called "a guy who looks as if he's gonna die of disease" than a freaking "geek". Please! I'm not a geek! If you think I am, then you don't know me well at all -.-
I'm just smart and good looking thats all =). HAHA! Jk!

P.S. I want to go out with you! =S

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12:49 AM

Thursday, November 20, 2008

"Fear Alma again"...

I'm gonna talk about games for this post.

Alma is back, and she is as scary as fucking hell.

I went to the FEAR 2: Project Origin website recently (and just now) and saw a new "Alma" video.

First time watching the video:
I saw the freaking video alone in my room with volume at 50%... Bad choice.
I thought it wasn't gonna be scary. After all, I know how Alma looks like and she wasn't that scary. In the video though, the unexpected scream by a little girl caught me off guard. The video was lagging so I managed to see a pair of red/orange eyes when the scream was heard... I had no idea what I saw. I was like "HOLY FUCKKKKKKKKK!" and my family came rushing in my room haha. I told them I saw a ghost. Only my brother knew what I was talking about so he was the only one who stayed.
Second time watching:
I felt less afraid since my brother was with me. I was still disturbed by the spine-chilling scream though so I turned down the volume to like 10%.
The scream was still heard LOUD AND CLEAR... And this time, I definately saw a pair of red eyes. My brother claimed he saw someone's hand though. So downloaded the Alma video so we could watch without experiencing any lag.
Third time watching:
Download was complete. The video played without any lag this time...
We were expecting to see a pair of red eyes/someone's hand ONLY JUST AFTER the scream. We were caught off guard again when ALMA, that freaking scary girl in red dress, appeared (jumped more like) in the screen screaming her lungs off. Scared the living hell out of the both of us. The rest of the video was nothing though. It just showed the new physics engine in the game, how the player will be experiencing paranomal activity and what Alma will do to the player in the game. The Single Player physics is fucking awesome. I don't know whether my computer can run the game without any lag... (Need to upgrade my fucked up graphic card).

I get chills down my spine just by thinking about it.
After the video, my brother was like "I don't think we can play this game...". And I agreed HAHA!
I'm still getting the game no matter what! I'll nearly get heartattacks though since even FEAR was scary to me when I first played.

But I still love Alma when she appears as the little girl in red dress =). I hate the naked/deformed version of Alma though...

FEAR 2: Project Origin comes out in late Feb 2009. Can't wait.

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6:54 PM

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Short Ride In A Fast Machine

OMG! It was the first time playing this song (for me) in band today!!

F R E A K I N G B O R I N G ! !
The Clarinet part is a freaking ostinato!
BUT
I love this piece. HAHA!
What I mean is, I love hearing other PROFESSIONAL wind bands performing this piece but I don't like to play it.

Its a challenging piece for the Clarinets cuz we have semi-quavers all the way from the beginning of the piece til the end. Divisi all the way.

So ya. We (the Clarinet section) really have to work on this piece. It requires teamwork to play our parts perfectly so everyone has to be perfect. The perfectionist side of me emerging -.-.

If you guys didn't hear the song before, go check it out at YouTube!! Its awesome seriously! Unless if you don't like band music...
So ya, those coming to the concert! There is a sneak preview to how the opening piece of the concert will sound like! =P

P.S. I wonder how my wonderful classmates are spending their holidays... Not mugging all the way I hope... XD

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11:01 PM

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

-.-

Okay... I think everyone thinks I'm like super anti-Japanese haha.
Which is SO NOT TRUE!! XP. I just consider Japan like the main economic rivals to Korea thats all =D. I love Japanese songs! I love Japanese games like Resident Evil and King of Fighters! I love Japanese anime series like the Saiyuki series and some old ones like Rurouni Kenshin/Samurai X haha. I love their language, even considered learning it. Gave up long time ago though haha. Its just too hard XD. And 2 of my close friends are half Japanese!! The Miyauchi's haha; Taka and Chie. Taka's like my brother and Chie, she was the girl of my dreams for like 5 years? Before I finally gave up haha.
So please don't go telling other people, who love Japan, that I'm anti-Japanese. That would be making the 2 of us, or whole bunch of them and me enemies or something, which I do not want haha.

Oh and another thing. I AM NOT GAY!
OMG.
Oh and the "boy friend" thing, its only a joke! Please! Haha.
Plus, I'm a Catholic. Its against my religion to be a homosexual. So ya =).

P.S. Only your thoughts and opinions matters to me. I don't care how others see me.

SHUT UP.
10:31 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008

Nothing to be sad about

I realised during band that I have nothing to be sad about.

I thought it was gonna be another fucked up day for me but it turned out otherwise.
Band practice started today at 8:30am. I couldn't join my section for sectionals cuz I had to photocopy conductor scores (All by myself too!! =S). Maybe it was a good thing, me not joining sectionals cuz I kinda did a self-reflection while photocopying scores. I had no one to talk to so I silently talked to myself. Like a loner right?! After like 3 hours of photocopying scores/self-reflection, I felt way better.
It was seriously nothing to be sad or angry about. Sorry for all the angry/emo posts =S.

When I went back to the band room, I received warm "hello"s from my section mates, band mates and my "boy friend" HAHA!! =P. They never fail to make me smile and laugh during band. I didn't really act all sad and stuff today so my band mates probably didn't know I was feeling a little sad haha!
But still. Yvonne, Shi Hua, Hui Min, Xian Hua, Cindy, Pei Qi, Jojo, Zane, Derrick, Keng Guan, Jonathan, and to those whose name I missed, thanks for making every band practices awesome, and most kick-ass ever!
Can't believe CY wasn't there though -.-. No wonder band felt.. empty. HAHA!

P.S. So Jo! When are we watching the movie?! Haha. Call my "boy friend" and "Master Shifu*" along as well this time!! =D. AND HILMI MUST COME!! Too bad Seaweed Cow Zero (Kim So Young translated in English) will miss the movie outing this time. Jojo, you organize everything! Cuz I'm too lazy to do so =P. Tag me back girl!

SHUT UP.
9:42 PM

Somebody beat the living hell out of me so that I can't remember how to be sad anymore...

Piece of shit.

Maybe one of the reasons why God created me in a way so that I "heal" fast is because I get "hurt" easily (Both physically and emotionally I guess).
Could this be the effect of bipolar disorder?! If it is, then I really am bipolar...

I so fucking need a punching bag. I've seen people practice on them and hell, they're the greatest tool to release your anger at...

No peaceful sleep tonight...

P.S. I want 45% alcohol Vodka again... Not some shitty cheap ass 8% alcohol ones they sell in 7/11...

SHUT UP.
12:14 AM

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Standard Chartered Marathon, Tiring band practices

3 things that are bothering me like hell these days

I heard from Kamal that the run shit was in early December...

I'm freaking running 42km and I didn't start training yet... Guess I'll walk lots of times.
To whoever reads my blog in my class, wanna go to East Coast and run our asses off? It'll be a great "diet" plan for those on diet too (Siva).

I guess you guys are okay with any day... I'm the problem huh? Because of my fucked up band schedule -.-... How about this coming Saturday? From like 4pm to 7pm?? Then we can have dinner, go to Jon's house, etc =D.
Or we can just meet in school and run around the track (Cuz its close to my house =D).

Oh ya and people! 18th December is my band concert!! Come support yeah? =).
Some people MUST come =P.
And spread the word too!!

Problems I face in band: being a section leader AND a librarian at the same time.
Pros and cons of being a section leader:
Pros: None
Cons: Teachers come after me when members are not turning up (HAHA! Makes me feel guilty), lots of things to do like arranging parts and making sure everyone has equal number of 1st Clarinet parts... (Can we drop the switch-part-for-every-song system?... I want to play 1st all the way =P), have to message members before the day of the band practice to remind them to blah blah blah...
Of course I have assistants but it still gets tiring working double posts. (I hope Saw Wah and Yvonne agree with me for the pros and cons part since they were SLs too XD)

Yeah, and so being the librarian also, I have to go for band practices early to photocopy scores and stuff... With So Young not around I have no one to push my tasks to since Mel's always so busy with percussion stuff [Not blaming her =)].

I can't wait til I step down from the double post, which will be like after the SYF next year. Therefore, I can't wait til SYF next year =P.

P.S. Am I being ignored?...

SHUT UP.
2:35 PM

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Not my day today

Yeah, title says it.

Today is/was a shit day for me (At least until now and probably later too). No reason. Maybe I woke up on the wrong side of bed or something...

My brother was cursing Star Sports for not showing NBA on time. Usually I'll agree with my brother and will curse too but today I got so fed up, I shouted at him to STFU. I think it was a little too loud... The neighbours probably heard it cuz I kinda heard an echo.

Then my fucked up MSN just had to piss me off even more. I couldn't sign online when my brother's account was working fine.
I got pissed off for no reason again when playing Solitare too.

Even my favourite e-sports, Starcraft, failed to get my mind off things...
Facebook too. Its boring going to Facebook these days too... It was really fun last time though.

I think I'm gonna go drinking later. Light one though. Don't think I can get past today without it... Lets hope I don't go around my house punching everything =S

Sigh... How I wish you were here and maybe have a similar day as Thursday (Only longer)...

Nah. I'm angry at myself, never to you.

Why is it that I'm always angry when I'm sad?...

SHUT UP.
3:21 PM

Friday, November 14, 2008

Chocolate

If a chocolate given to you represents a portion of my love towards you, the world will run out of chocolates.

Yes I'm certain, and I'm not gonna hide my feelings now.

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6:19 PM

WAHAHA

I was feeling a mix of happiness and nervousness (Don't know whether I phrashed this correctlY -.-). I felt mOre nervous than when I was presenting my OP or even when I was playing a solo dUring a band concert. At the same time, I was literally jumping around my house in joy like some retarded, over-groWn kid (Not litErally!). It was the same feeling I had just outside the O-hub.

I got ready and all by 6:30pm exactly. Checked and re-checked to make suRe I wasn't "drEssing up" too much. I had everything planned out in my head (BBad choice though... Should have wrotE down on a paper or something). So I mAde sure I had enoUgh money, made sure I wasn't forgeTting anything, and made sure I dIdn't get too sweaty.
Took a bath like 2 times too. Washed my face with soap 6 times to try to get the ugly pimple on my face to disappear.
I also kinda made a list in my head (Again, a bad choice) on where to go, what to do and stuFf like that if there was time left before leaving my hoUse.

So, I reached the pLace by 7:20pm-725pm. Went up to the rendezvous point and waited like 10-15 minutes. We met at the rendezvous point and as soon as we did, everything I planned and whatever vanished into thin air. One word to describe; Beautiful/pretty/gorgeous. The glasses look uglY?! No they don't! And its impossible for the wEarer to look ugly =). The word ugly and your name together would be an oxymoron. Same goes for my name too HAHA!
Ya so since the plan I came up with vaniShed, I can't say that everyThing wEnt accoRding to plan AND everything didn't go accorDing to plAn haha.

We bought tickets to 007: Quantum of Solace and still had around 30 minutes to spare. I started hating the place cuz there were no place to shop around and stuff. In the end, we just got chips from the supermarket to smuggle in the cinema. Yeah, so after that was movie time alreadY. Really should have ate dinner first before watching, but again, I didn't want you reaching home so late even though there were no curfews. I can't be selfish (Nicer way of saying XD) =)

I have to say, the movie was better than the first one. No scene where James Bond gets his balls bullwhip-ed over and over again though.
The new bond is too aggressive too... My ideal James Bond image is the Pierce Brosnan-as-James Bond image =).
And I'm damn stupid! Jacket/sweater just HAD to be in the washing machine TODAY!!... OMG. I'll bring my sweater along everywhere, everyday even though I'm wearing long sleeve... Or hell, even though I'm going to a freaking desert.

There was a little plan change after the movie. We didn't get to eat after the movie cuz the potato chips and the popcorns did the job. Ya, and so in the end I got to find out where your house is.

Thank you so much for making a normal day one of the most happiest days of my life! =)
Hope it won't be long before the next one? =P.

P.S. 3 Ferrero Rocher per week!

SHUT UP.
9:10 AM

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

For the sake of blogging

Here I am, blogging again for the sake of blogging...

Been busy lately even though I'm done with PW and H1 A levels.
No offence, but band has been (still is) eating up my holidays these few days.
Every Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays I have to go back to school in the stupid cleaner-like school uniform to play my instrument, Clarinet. Do I really have to?... I mean I have my own instrument and all. I practice like everyday at home, so why not let me stay home and practice by myself? After I master my parts, the rhythm and playing together with the band will be a no problem.

Anyways, enuff whinning... I have to say, these few days, the band actually sounds good to me. There are no more off pitch sounds, wrong notes and all... When we played Cantilena today, it was the first time I actually "felt" the music strongly while playing in MI band HAHA!
The song "Jungle" sounds awesome too, although I have to admit I wanted to play movie pieces than songs like Jungle for this concert... Concert's coming up soon... We all better practice hard.

Hmmm... Nothing else to blog about -.-
Haha I hope I don't give a bad impression or anything later today (13 November 2008, Thursday) =S
Surprising how a nobody like me gets this oppotunity =)
Lets enjoy the Ferrero Rocher and hope I get my wish...

P.S. Some of you may agree with me that all you get from love is pain (note: SOME). I want to experience the "good side" of love...
I pray to God, Jesus my lord, wish upon my shinning star...

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11:59 PM

Thursday, November 06, 2008

Oral Presentation

My oral presentation (OP) was yesterday, 6th of November (My brother's birthday) at 10:30am...

So our OP started with Jasmine starting off with the "Imagine" thing.

Jasmine's presentation was okay. Her voice could be heard, she talked quite fluently, and she didn't have any cue cards. It was probably one of the good (note: not best) presentation Jasmine managed to pull off.

Next up was Cheryl. She also started off her part of the presentation brightly by smiling. She seemed to be interacting with the audience for her introduction but that soon faded. I could tell she was nervous. Can't blame her. There were 4 assesors, 1 external moderator, and 7 audience staring right at her, and at her only. I would say her actual OP wasn't one of the best she has presented so far. It doesn't mean that it was bad either. It just means she was good, but could have done way better.

Vaani took over the slides after Cheryl. She started off by interacting with the audience by telling them to close their eyes. The assesors were supposed to close their eyes also but they didn't... Her idea of going close to the audience also went down the drain when one of the assesors asked Vaani to move back. I guess Vaani was a little taken aback at this which greatly affected her overall presentation. Vaani's presentation, like Cheryl's, wasn't bad either. She kept on refering to her cue cards and stammered here and there during her part of the presentation.

My part came next. My heart was beating so fast when Vaani went to her final slide. When Vaani said, "Now, I shall pass on the presentation to James..." all the nervousness disappeared. Yeah, I'm "weird" like what many of you think =/. I started my part with just a normal introduction, nothing fancy. As I was going on to my first slide, I glanced at all the assesors and they were like all smiling, giving me the "Just go for it" face etc. It was super encouraging. Throughout my presentation, the assesors kept on nodding for each point I said and I had to make constant eye contact with them to score for my "Awareness of Audience". It was surprising that I didn't refer to my cue cards at all, although I was holding them. My "cheesy" ending was also pulled off quite well, even though it was a last minute thing. "Samsung Electronics, its not that hard to imagine" HAHA! Can't believe I actually said it. All the assesors were laughing/smiling as if they knew that I was Korean and was promoting a Korean brand haha! (Or maybe they really knew =.-)

It was, however, the RTQ (Response to Questions) that killed me. Jasmine, Cheryl, and Vaani were able to answer well for their questions. I blanked out when I heard my question. I kept thinking 'Oh shit, why didn't we cover on that?!' haha because the question was "What would we do to spread the idea of smart homes to the low income people" or something like that. I guess the reason I blanked out was because I was thinking of the answers for the questions my group members were asked haha.

Overall, I'm satisfied with my oral presentation =D. It would have been more encouraging if more people turned up for our OP though. Everyone over slept or couldn't come because they had something else on...

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11:25 PM

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

The Sun rising in the West tomorrow?

OMG!!!! CHIE GOT FACEBOOK!!

THE SUN WILL RISE IN THE WEST TOMORROW!!

Haha cuz she was like "I'm too lazy to get Facebook". So the fact that she got Facebook means she wasn't being lazy, which there is only like 1% chance of happening. Thus, the Sun will rise in the West tomorrow. Haha! I have no idea what I'm saying.

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9:02 PM

Whats wrong with me?...

Had OP Mock today with Mr. Teng (the Environmentalist Activist Group teacher) and I seriously screwed up.

I'm really at fault really, because the slides I was supposed to present were edited COMPLETELY by my group member like 12 hours before the presentation... I have to admit, I was freaking pissed off yesterday because I had to change MOST of my speech, and I didn't even know the content I was supposed to present.

My previous speech, was perfect. I didn't freaking need the little notes at all when I last rehearsed it. It was all memorized and I knew freaking well about the content I was presenting. I didn't understand why my previous slides had to go actually. My group member just changed it without telling me. Didn't even mention WHY her slides seemed better. I talked with my friends yesterday on MSN and they told me to go talk and reason with my group member... I didn't because I was so not in the mood to talk to that person. Maybe I wouldn't have been as pissed off if she told me beforehand that she was gonna change my slides...
Oh well... Forgive and forget; my moto (?) haha.

Right, so because my content was edited, my Mock OP was fucked up. I had to refer to my cards like alot beacuse I wasn't sure of the content I was presenting. My confidence was like non-existent too... Ms. Zhang said my hands were shaking uncontrollably. I didn't really notice it though cuz all I could think of that time was "Get this over with", "This is fucked up", "Can I stop?...". I bet if I used the previous slides, I wouldn't have been nervous at all. Like what Ms. Zhang said, I think I only present well if I know what I'm talking about. She mentioned me talking in band (making announcements and stuff) and told me to imagine as if I'm talking to my band mates during the actual OP. Not a bad idea, but I make lots of jokes and all haha (at least to my Clarinet section). Haha Ms. Zhang also asked me who in our class will make me all calm and stuff haha. I was like.. "no one"... Haha!

Lets hope I don't screw up for the actual OP.

P.S. No point mourning over a spilled drink... Lets prepare for whats coming =)... Cheer up...

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6:15 PM

Saturday, November 01, 2008

When I'm mad

When I'm mad and sad at the same time, I go "LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" at almost full volume (only when I'm alone that is).
Bodies - Drowning Pool, kick-ass song, stress relief.

I can't wait for 6th of November!! From 7th onwards, I'll probably be on my computer 24/7. Unless people ask me out or if I have to go buy lunch for me brother.
My brother's turning 16 on 6th November. I REALLY want to buy him his AND1 shoes but I don't have the money... Anyone wants to share? (Even though you don't know my brother and all =.-). My parents are probably gonna say "We can't be wasting money on buying presents nowadays" if I ask her for that extra cash. And its damn true these days... Thanks to the recession fuck.

FUCKING MONEY'S THE PROBLEM!!!!
Lots of things to buy, but no money.

I wonder how those people, whose money just flows in their doorstep, spend their money. Nothing against them, but just curious.
And yet people still think I'm "rich"... Fuck no I'm not. I live in a freaking HDB and gets $0 allowance (no allowance). My wallet's empty most of the time these days.

I'm gonna fold 1000 cranes again like last time when our family had to suffer from IMF back in Korea. No, its not to wish for my family to be rich (that would be selfish =P).
I know God is letting us experience this for a good reason. Who knows? If I never went through the hard times during IMF in Korea, I might never have felt pity to the poor like how I am now.

=.-

You know what? I have no fucking idea what the fuck I'm talking about. I'm in a state of "mixed emotions" right now haha. Happy, sad, angry, frustrated all at the same time.
Gonna be a good boi and study for Geog now...

Apologies if my excessive use of the word FUCK offended you =.-

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3:32 PM